I had noticed a Thames Water bill..lying unopened on top of the letter box...where it stayed there for days...I kept on promsing myself I will open it to read later on.
I honestly thought it would be a 'reminder' stating I must pay £50.00 per month. So, at first, I ignored it...because I was broke...and, then, today, I decided to go open the letter up...just to see what's inside.
Well, the Thames Water bill said I owe them: £677.33p; and, that I must pay this sum, immediately right now; the letter was dated 5th July 2019...and, today's date is: 11th July 2019; therefore, there wasn't any more days left to spare! I had to urgently phone them...in order to negotiate, hopefully.
12:00 GAMBLED AT WILLIAM HILL/AND, LOST £15.00
Somewhere around midday, I remembered I had some balance still left on my account at:
http://www.williamhill.com
...it was less than £9.00. I could do one of two things which was, either...
a> withdraw this amount back to my debit card...which was, orginally used to deposit it.
b> gamble with the money; thus, hoping to increase my balance
...in the end I decided to go with option b...which was gamble. It was the usual sad story...namely, I made money...£8.xx became £9.xx...then, later on, £15.xx. Then, I decided to go bet the full £15.00...; and, that's when I went and lost...coming away with an almost nil balance: £0.66p.
Now-a-days, my gambling is 'controlled' only in the sense that...
1> I don't have too much money to spend/deposit...as, mostly, I'm broke.
2> I'm scared that even if I win...I will still loose; because I'm the type of gambler who will risk betting 'all or nothing'/as opposed to betting 'small'.
2PM-5PM LIL SULLIVANT/PORTRAIT ART CLASS/ACKERMAN HEALTH CENTRE, VAUXHALL
Well, the Thames Water bill said I owe them: £677.33p; and, that I must pay this sum, immediately right now; the letter was dated 5th July 2019...and, today's date is: 11th July 2019; therefore, there wasn't any more days left to spare! I had to urgently phone them...in order to negotiate, hopefully.
I explained to them that I'm not working; I'm unemployed; also, my benefit payments are low...as they have had to deduct money for previously unpaid Council tax...which is years in arrears.
I also told them I would pay them £100.00, now; I actually made them 2 separate payments: £77.33/followed by £25.00 = £102.33; agreeing to pay the rest, later...if they would allow me to pay it at the rate of £50.00 monthly; to which, eventually, they agreed; although they said I did mess up/default on the previous £50.00 a month payment arrangement. Anyway, they said they would send me a monthly payment card...which I can expect to arrive in around 10 days time.
So, now, I have around £500/or, half a grand still left to pay.
(I think, I made an agreement with British Gas to also pay them £50.00 a month. Another one I've gone and defaulted on. Another letter, I've still not bothered to open, yet...why, because I'm broke!)
12:00 GAMBLED AT WILLIAM HILL/AND, LOST £15.00
Somewhere around midday, I remembered I had some balance still left on my account at:
http://www.williamhill.com
...it was less than £9.00. I could do one of two things which was, either...
a> withdraw this amount back to my debit card...which was, orginally used to deposit it.
b> gamble with the money; thus, hoping to increase my balance
...in the end I decided to go with option b...which was gamble. It was the usual sad story...namely, I made money...£8.xx became £9.xx...then, later on, £15.xx. Then, I decided to go bet the full £15.00...; and, that's when I went and lost...coming away with an almost nil balance: £0.66p.
Now-a-days, my gambling is 'controlled' only in the sense that...
1> I don't have too much money to spend/deposit...as, mostly, I'm broke.
2> I'm scared that even if I win...I will still loose; because I'm the type of gambler who will risk betting 'all or nothing'/as opposed to betting 'small'.
2PM-5PM LIL SULLIVANT/PORTRAIT ART CLASS/ACKERMAN HEALTH CENTRE, VAUXHALL
3 PM My art class actually begins at 2 PM; then, lasts until 5 PM. However, as usual, I arrived there 'late'. Had to go and make a deposit at the bank in Streatham, first; as my current a/c. balance said, nil! I remember depositing £40.00.
When I arrived at class, there were 4 females; all older people...1 included the teacher herself/and, 3 others were students. I was the only male there. I didn't do any drawing, today, though; instead, I just sat and posed; whilst the others drew me.../or else, drew the teacher...I sat by her side. (At the same time, I read a book on Modigliani/and, stared at both his drawings/paintings being seen inside of it.)
When I arrived at class, there were 4 females; all older people...1 included the teacher herself/and, 3 others were students. I was the only male there. I didn't do any drawing, today, though; instead, I just sat and posed; whilst the others drew me.../or else, drew the teacher...I sat by her side. (At the same time, I read a book on Modigliani/and, stared at both his drawings/paintings being seen inside of it.)
I was meant to go to the teachers home, afterwards, to help her upload stuff; which she has great difficulties doing...being a stoke victim. However, she said, let's put that evening appointment off for today; and, phone her tomorrow...to which I agreed.
5 PM VISITED TATE BRITAIN GALLERY
http://www.tate.org.uk
I rode my bike over to Tate Britain Gallery -located just over Vauxhall Bridge- to go and draw. Only much to my surprise...when I entered the drawing room...there were 3 empty easels...; and, one table...with no pencils/rubbers/sharpeners...nothing?! All I saw there was just 1 sheet of paper...with one side already drawn on...so, I decided to use the empty side of this paper to go and draw on...using the pencil stored inside of my pocket. I drew a sculpture of 2 females/+ a young Jesus Christ. Soon, it was closing time...; thus, I left.
http://www.tate.org.uk
I rode my bike over to Tate Britain Gallery -located just over Vauxhall Bridge- to go and draw. Only much to my surprise...when I entered the drawing room...there were 3 empty easels...; and, one table...with no pencils/rubbers/sharpeners...nothing?! All I saw there was just 1 sheet of paper...with one side already drawn on...so, I decided to use the empty side of this paper to go and draw on...using the pencil stored inside of my pocket. I drew a sculpture of 2 females/+ a young Jesus Christ. Soon, it was closing time...; thus, I left.
I felt very deeply disappointed, though; that they had either 'hidden' away the drawing papers/drawing equipment...or else, had closed it down altogether; as that was one of the main reason why I ever turned up there, and, regularly.
6:30 PM MISSED ANOTHER AIKIDO LESSON, YET, AGAIN
I think, it's been 2 or 3 weeks now that I haven't been back to taking any Aikido lessons; plus, the last lesson I didn't even pay for, yet; so, I owe the teacher £10.00, at least; plus, another £10.00 to take the next lesson. That means, I will have to bring along £20.00; only because I'm so flat broke...I just didn't bother to go.
7 PM BROUGHT SOME JUNK FOOD: CHICKEN + CHIPS + BURGER/AND, ALSO, 1 CHIPS/TANGO DRINK FOR A TOTAL COMPLETE STRANGER WHO ASKED
As I rode my bike back home; at Tulse Hill I read a food advert which said, £1.49 for a big cheese burger; so, I went in there and asked them if they accept taking 'debit card' payments. The answer was, no; but, they did say there is a FREE cash machine...next door. Next door said the cash machine isn't working. However, next door to them was a FREE cash machine which worked; so, I withdrew £10.00.
I went back into the fast food shop, and, brought 2 pieces of chicken + fries/and, 1 x cheese burger. For a moment whilst waiting for my food to get ready...I stepped outside; and, a lady sitting down on some steps -(that place used to be Nat West bank way back in the old days)- said something to me; I didn't understand what...so, I asked her to repeat it. She said could I buy her some fries + a drink. I had 1 x £5.00 note left; so, I went back into the shop and ordered what she requested; when my order was ready...I came out of the shop...and, gave her the requested food/drink. She thanked me.
To tell you the truth, I wish I could be a lot more hard hearted towards strangers; but, I think, what happens inside of my head is...what if that were me...would I wish to be completely 'ignored'?! However, the reality of the situation is...number 1, I wouldn't ask a complete stranger to go and buy me anything; I don't remember doing that ever in my whole entire life; and, now, I'm aged 56+. And, number 2, even if I did ask her to go and buy me chips + drink...I don't think she would...because, either she ain't got enough money to be able to afford it/or, she just wouldn't be interested in helping me out at all! But, some weird reason...being brought up too well...to think that giving charity to others is good; therefore, 9 times out of 10...I will go and help a complete stranger out; although, I know for 100% sure that they would NOT help me out, if I were in the same place as them. Well, they do say that 'goodness is it's own reward'.
6:30 PM MISSED ANOTHER AIKIDO LESSON, YET, AGAIN
I think, it's been 2 or 3 weeks now that I haven't been back to taking any Aikido lessons; plus, the last lesson I didn't even pay for, yet; so, I owe the teacher £10.00, at least; plus, another £10.00 to take the next lesson. That means, I will have to bring along £20.00; only because I'm so flat broke...I just didn't bother to go.
7 PM BROUGHT SOME JUNK FOOD: CHICKEN + CHIPS + BURGER/AND, ALSO, 1 CHIPS/TANGO DRINK FOR A TOTAL COMPLETE STRANGER WHO ASKED
As I rode my bike back home; at Tulse Hill I read a food advert which said, £1.49 for a big cheese burger; so, I went in there and asked them if they accept taking 'debit card' payments. The answer was, no; but, they did say there is a FREE cash machine...next door. Next door said the cash machine isn't working. However, next door to them was a FREE cash machine which worked; so, I withdrew £10.00.
I went back into the fast food shop, and, brought 2 pieces of chicken + fries/and, 1 x cheese burger. For a moment whilst waiting for my food to get ready...I stepped outside; and, a lady sitting down on some steps -(that place used to be Nat West bank way back in the old days)- said something to me; I didn't understand what...so, I asked her to repeat it. She said could I buy her some fries + a drink. I had 1 x £5.00 note left; so, I went back into the shop and ordered what she requested; when my order was ready...I came out of the shop...and, gave her the requested food/drink. She thanked me.
To tell you the truth, I wish I could be a lot more hard hearted towards strangers; but, I think, what happens inside of my head is...what if that were me...would I wish to be completely 'ignored'?! However, the reality of the situation is...number 1, I wouldn't ask a complete stranger to go and buy me anything; I don't remember doing that ever in my whole entire life; and, now, I'm aged 56+. And, number 2, even if I did ask her to go and buy me chips + drink...I don't think she would...because, either she ain't got enough money to be able to afford it/or, she just wouldn't be interested in helping me out at all! But, some weird reason...being brought up too well...to think that giving charity to others is good; therefore, 9 times out of 10...I will go and help a complete stranger out; although, I know for 100% sure that they would NOT help me out, if I were in the same place as them. Well, they do say that 'goodness is it's own reward'.
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