Thursday, 5 September 2019

Thu 050919 Missed CLW appointment/Gambled: £5.00/lost: 0.47p bal./British gas: £77.00 monthly. Amazon: USB rechargeable Headlamp/Fish & Chips

10 AM POSTAL DELIVERY: AMAZON HEAD LAMP

I had ordered from off Amazon web site...

https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B07PYH4SDM/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o02_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

...a headlamp costing £10.99.

It was easy enough to set up/took 5 hours to do a first full charge/works effectively.

11 AM - 3:30 PM WENT OFF TO SLEEP/WOKE UP TO GO WATCH TV/COMPLETELY FORGOT I HAD AN IMPORTANT 'CENTRAL LONDON WORKS' APPOINTMENT...?!

After setting up the headlamp to charge...I went off to sleep somewhere around 11 AM; then, woke up, again...at around 3:30 PM.

The good news is, the headlamp is now fully charged...and, the charging light has gone from 'red'/(needs charging)...to 'green'/(fully charged).

The bad news is, all of a sudden, I remembered that I had to attend a very important 'Central London Works' appointment at 3 PM in Vauxhall. Only it takes, at least, 1/2 an hour long to ride over there...so, by the time I would arrive...it would be 4 PM...when the 1 hour appointment is already over!

Therefore, I had no other choice except to phone the receptionist...; stating that they should take a note that I was ill; and, thus, unable to come along to the appointment; please, give me another appointment. The receptionist said, they would send the note.

Frankly, I really don't know exactly what is going to happen, next; as there is a strong possibility that the job centre is going to cut off my benefits when they hear the news that I missed my CLW appointment; that scares the living daylights out of me...as I have no other income to live on; or to use to pay bills with.

5 PM PHONED BRITISH GAS ABOUT HAVING MISSED A FORTNIGHTLY PAYMENT/MADE A NEW MONTHLY PAYMENT ARRANGEMENT: £77.00

I phoned British Gas to say I received a letter dated: 310819...stating they had cancelled my fortnightly payment arrangement...due to a missed 2nd payment.

I also explained to them that, today, I had made an online payment towards the £300.00 overdue electric bill...of £55.00...thus, reducing the bill to now become £245.00.

Eventually, the guy I spoke to got me to agree to another payment arrangement...this time, monthly, of £77.00...starting on the 19th. A new payment card to be delivered in 7 days time.

8:30 PM CYCLED DOWN THE ROAD TO GO BUY 'FISH & CHIPS'

I went down the road to go and buy some 'fish and chips'; 2 streets away. I didn't have enough change...missing 0.10p; however, the shop lady let me off. Then, 10 or 15 minutes, later; I rode my bike back there, again...to pay the missing 0.10p.

CONCLUSION 

Right now, I have a major ? hanging over my head; will the job centre choose to cut off my benefits altogether for the next 6 months...?! They've already gone and done that before...whenever I missed an appointment; so, it certainly wouldn't surprise me very much if they did it, again, once more. The other ? I have is...could I actually survive without any benefit money coming in...?

I'm going to have to make up an excuse as to why I missed the appointment; and, then, hopefully, they will be willing enough to listen to it. I dislike having to lie...; much preferring to 'always' tell the truth...saying it just like it is...no matter how bad things get; however, there are times when I feel I have little other choice left but to try my utmost best to lie.

I still have the water rate bill to go and pay; which, I believe, was another fortnightly payment arrangement I've gone and missed paying.

If I were to let everything bother me too much, mentally; then, I think, one or two things would happen, next...either I will go mad; or, my stomach ulcer will return...due to too much endless worrying. So, I have to try and detach emotionally from things as best I can...; and, just pretend that everything is going to be ok; as doing too much worrying really isn't good at all; can, in fact, prove counter-productive; after all, if I can't even help myself...; then, I certainly won't be able to help anybody else...especially, my elderly mum. In this way, due to having serious responsibility towards others...; and, not having to consider just yourself, alone...kind of forces you to stay, at least, half-way 'sane'.







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