Mon 270720 Returned home.../FREE food delivery at 3:30 PM

8 AM WOKE UP/SHARON ASKED ME TO GET CIGARETTES DOWN THE ROAD FROM THE INDIAN NEWSPAPER SHOP

I awoke, and, already decided I wish to return back home...cat to feed/letters to read/-etc.; but, first, I had to show Geoff the videos of the house damage.

I did show Geoff the videos of the house; and, he said because the ceiling was weak; that's why the above wall had sunk. He said, he would try and contact somebody about it.

Sharon wrote with her finger on the iPad that the cigarettes she wanted cost £9/and, also, what type. She also gave me a £10.00 note to buy it with.

When I rode by bicycle down the road off to the newspaper shop...the Indian lady (wife) said she hasn't got those cigarettes for £9.00. I asked her how much, then? She answered: £10.40.

I returned back to Sharon explaining that the shop keeper wanted more money; (unfortunately, I had no change of my own to make it up). So, she gave me the extra 0.40p.

I went back to the shop...this time I saw the Indian man (husband); and, brought back a pack of cigarettes...I think, it was 10 (Sharon wanted 20).

Then, Oliver, the son saw me coming with Cigarettes for his mum; which he was not meant to see...and, he started shouting: 'Paul smokes/how dirty!' Sharon, explained, it's for her...due to the stress.

On that rather 'sad' note I left.

10 AM I ARRIVED BACK HOME 

When I got back home, the cat was very happy to see me...; and, came and sat in my lap.

I phoned Sharon to say I'd arrived home safe; and, please, don't send me to get no more cigarettes, especially, from that same shop.

There was also 2 answer machine messages from Paxton Green Time Bank worker, Fabienne. She said that somebody called, Sue, would deliver some FREE food to my door...as she'd put my name down on the list; just make sure that I'm in between 3:30 - 4 PM to receive it. So, I phoned her back on her mobile: 074 6262 7273; to say, yes, I'd be in.

3:30 PM SUE CALLED WITH SOME FREE FOOD

A lady, Sue, called at the house...she'd driven in her car from Crystal Palace...and, came to deliver a big cardboard box of FREE food.

- 1 x box of 6 eggs

- 1 x large bag of Doritos Guacamole flavor crisps

- 3 x chocolate bars

- 3 x plastic wrapped packets of already cooked meat you just 'heat up'

- 2 x tins of baked beans

- 1 x tin of potatoes

- 1 x tin of broth soup

- 1 x large Kingsmill soft white bread

- 2 x glass jars of Strawberry/Marmelade jam

- 1 x box of Apple and Pear fruit juice

- 1 x Nescafe Gold Blend Coffee

- 1 x carton of CoOp Fairtrade tea bags

- 1 x glass jar of Instant Hot Chocolate (just add water)

- 1 x medium sized plastic bottle of Coco Cola

- 1 x hand sanitiser

- 1 x small box of moisturiser

- 1 x plastic bottle hand/face cream

- 1 x plastic bottle of Dairy Milk (which was the only item I returned back; because I'm allergic to Dairy Milk/and, only use Soya Bean/or, Almond milk, instead.)

- Plus, some loose fruit..including: 2 x bananas, 4 x apples, 2 x oranges

I was going to return back to Sue something by way of donation; but, they said they get FREE food from businesses.

I phoned back Fabienne to thank her. She also mentioned that Vale Street food bank is now re-opened; and, you can get 'take away' cooked food for a small price.

Also, the food deliveries would continue at the same time every Monday; unless, I tell her in advance to cancel/or, I will not be in at that time/day.

Sun 260720 Visited Sharon by train...

GETTING READY TO GO VISIT SHARON, AGAIN

I was meant to visit Sharon between 3-4 PM on Sunday; but, as usual, I tend to get 'late' to most appointments.

She requested I buy her some Lilt drink.

I think I 'started' getting dressed at around 3:30 PM.

TOOK iPAD AIR VIDEO OF DAMAGE TO THE HOUSE: COLLAPSED CEILING/SUNK WALL

I also took some video on my iPad Air concerning the damage to the house.

- The collapsed ceiling plaster exposing the above rotten and leaking wooden beams.

- Too, the sunk wall which has come off by inches at the door/and, also, at the top...in between both the toilet/bathroom. 

I wanted to show the video to Geoff...to hear what he has to say about it.

4 PM WENT TO WEST NORWOOD TRAIN STATION/CLOSED

Much to my surprise, when I arrived at West Norwood train station...they had notices on display stating they were closed; and, when I looked they were doing building work/track re-arrangments.

At that point I decided to forget about going to visit Sharon, today; and, instead, just stay in...because I felt really sleepy, anyway.

4:10 PM BROUGHT 2 X LOTS OF CHICKEN & CHIPS

Across the road from West Norwood train station there is a fast food shop...where I, sometimes, buy 'chicken and chips'. I noticed, however, that the minimum order was for £4.00; and, 6 pieces of spicy chicken wings, and, chips cost £3.00; so, I ordered the same thing, twice...for a total of 2 x £3.00 = £6.00.

(NOTE: There was a queue outside of the food shop before I went in there; so, I had to wait some time before making my own order.)

When my order was ready...I returned straight back home in order to eat it.

5 PM PHONE SHARON TO REPORT WEST NORWOOD TRAIN STATION CLOSED

When I got back home, I phoned Sharon to say...

I had brought her 5 x medium sized plastic bottles of Lilt drink; but, most unfortunately, West Norwood train station was currently closed as they were undertaking rail track work.

She said she had made dinner, already; so, I should still come.

5:30 PM WENT TO STREATHAM COMMON TRAIN STATION 

I agreed to come. So, I packed everything and then went back through the door. My destination being Streatham Common.

(Along the way t o Streatham Common...the plastic bag I had to carry the food in...it's handle broke; so, I had to stop...to take out of my back pack a different set of plastic bags to carry the food in.)

When I arrived at Streatham Common; I just missed the train taking me off to East Croydon; so, I decided to take the next train which arrived in 3 minutes time...taking me off to Banstead train station.

I ate 1 x lot of 'chicken and chips' during the train journey(which is very 'rare', indeed, for me to do/normally, I do NOT eat when outside).

 

6 PM ARRIVED AT BANSTEAD TRAIN STATION

Eventually, the train arrived at Banstead train station; where I got off it. 

Walking outside of the train station...I really wasn't too sure which way to go, next. I'd actually alighted off at Banstead train station before...but, it was so long ago that I'd forgotten the way...?! I took a guess; and, luckily, my guess was right. You walk outside the station...then, turn right...; next turn, left, along the main road...and, at the traffic lights, cross over...turn right, and, just keep on going straight...eventually, you end up at the top of Garrat's Lane; where the luxury motor cars company is. Once I reach that point along the journey...I am no longer lost, anymore.

-(A group of 3 young kids...2 boys/1 girl...did ask me at the station how to get to Cousldon South...but, I told them I'm going to Banstead High Street...and, gave the those same directions; then, said you better ask someone who knows...than, ask someone who can only guess.)-

I rode my bike along the motorway past Burgh Heath straight up to Kingswood.

7 PM ARRIVED AT SHARON'S HOUSE/HAD DINNER/STAYED THERE OVERNIGHT

I told them the tale of my odd journey. Had dinner, curry and rice. The children requested I stay overnight...to which I agreed.

At night, I watched Mike Tyson on Sky TV...entertaining a whole entire audience on his own. I thought to myself, this guy is NOT stupid. He knows how to make money, as the audience was huge; and, he also knows how to entertain...a great talker/(as well as, physically acting out what he was talking about...mostly street stuff/street talk).  

  

Sat 250720 Sharon came to visit/saw June/Sharon's family - Sharon drove me home

PHONE CALL FROM SHARON COMING TO VISIT AT 3 PM

My cousin, Sharon, gave me a phone call stating that she would be coming to visit me at around 3 PM.

I told her to phone, first; just to make sure that I'm in.../and, also, not sleeping.

10 AM - 12 AM VISITED 2 X EMMAEUS CHARITY SHOPS/BROUGHT GOODS IN BOTH

I went down the road to go visit 2 x Emmaeus charity shops; 

In the first shop I brought...

1 x hollow standing female 'fashion' sculpture £5.00 (approx.)

1 x hand £5.00

4 x books £3.50

In the second shop I brought...

1 x photo/picture album £5.00 (approx.)

Later on, I returned back to Emmaeus, and, handed them...the large bag they gave me, earlier; and, in addition I handed over...

1 x large box/with wrapping (a pair of garden shears came in it)

1 x lot of old Metro newspapers (for them to use as wrapping paper)

1 x some plastic wrapping materials

2-3 PM SHOPPED AT BOTH SAINSBURYS/CO OP

I went and brought some shopping, first at the CoOp/and, then, later on, inside of Sainsbury's across the road.

I recall coming home balancing 5 shopping bags on my bikes handle bars.

3 PM RETURNED SHARON'S PHONE CALL TO SAY IT'S OK TO VISIT NOW I'M HOME

Sharon came to visit me in her car at around 4 PM; after I called her to say that, now, I'm home.

3:30 PM VISITED NEVIL/JUNE IN THORNTON HEATH

I then went in the car to visit seeing both Nevil/June. I spoke to Nevil; and, June spoke to Sharon (privately). 

Apparently, Sharon's marriage to Geoff is going through a really difficult period; so, she wanted somebody to discuss it with...all of the problems they've been having(down to even thinking about getting a divorce; but, with 3 young kids being involved...divorce is a very difficult subject, indeed).

4:30 PM VISITED SHARON'S HOME/SAW CHILDREN/AND, GEOFF

It was good getting to see/meet up with the children, again; and, also, to see Geoff.

I asked him for some advice about a council letter that was sent to me in regard to my mums property; where the letter said there was £1000+ owing in 'unpaid' rent. 

Geoff, told me to send in the letter simply stating that there were no assets left.

 I eat dinner there...; and, although, the children request I stay overnight...I told them, no; as I wish to return back home to feed the cat/and, also, do other things.

Sharon dropped me all the way back home.

 

 

Tue 210720 Paid CashPlus £50.00/Went for an evening bike ride: Camden Canal

PAID CASHPLUS £50.00

I knew I had to pay CashPlus their monthly sum due; only I really wasn't sure if the payment I made was 'late' or not...I, usually, am meant to pay them mid-month; instead, I paid them after the 20th...? Anyway, I paid them £50.00; and, when I checked, later on, it said the current balance still owing is around -£214.00 DR. I guess, it's gonna take a while to pay them off fully.

2 PM (approx.) MISSED PHONE CALL

I got a missed phone call from the DHSS; which I tried to dial back...but, the answerphone message said...there's no need to call them; as they will call me back, again, eventually; so, I left it at that.

4:45 PM WENT TO VISIT BANK IN BRIXTON

I rode my bike off to Brixton bank; rode through Herne Hill park along the way; as I needed to make an urgent withdrawal to pay for my my mum and aunt's grave headstone...which costs £1,000.00.

However, as usual, I left 'late'...should have left 1/2 an hour before the bank closes; instead, I left at 15 minutes to 5. When I actually arrived the bank was already closed. So, who knows, maybe, tomorrow I will try, again.

RODE MY BIKE TO VISIT TATE BRITAIN, CLOSED

Tate Britain was closed.

I took a side turning off Millbank...towards St James. 

Saw that the previous Starbucks that used to be open there...is, now, closed down.

Crossed over the road...and, kept going towards Big Ben.

ROYAL ACADEMY OF ARTS, CLOSED

I next rode off towards St James Park...; in St James Park...I used the FREE public toilets...to wee/and, washed my hands, thrice...; afterwards, I crossed the road ending up at Piccadilly. 

Crossed over the road, to look at the RAOA building...all locked up shut/closed.

ALL SAINTS CLUBSHOUSE, 131 CLEVELAND STREET, GREAT PORTLAND STREET STATION, CLOSED

From Piccadilly, I rode through Soho...up along Wardour Street...over to Cleveland Street -and, past London's Post Office Tower- to go and visit All Saints Clubhouse...where Gambler's Anonymous meets. They were shut...with a notice on the door stating that according to government guidelines all current meetings were postponed.

REGENTS PARK ZOO, CLOSED

From Cleveland Street, and, Great Portland Street tube station; I crossed the road...and, entered Regent's park...and, I kept on riding straight...until I got to the stretch where the zoo is...only I didn't see any animals 'moving'; so, I guess they were closed.

CAMDEN CANAL

From Regent Street, I decided to go downstairs...into the Regent's Canal. Frankly, I really wasn't too sure which end to turn; but, there is a boat restaurant...and, I turned towards that entrance...and, just kept on riding straight...though Camden...and, Pirate Castle...straight up until the very end of the canal. 

At that point, I decided to climb upstairs...and, did two turn rights; which took me into a main road.

I saw an Indian guy sitting down begging on the streets; felt really sorry for him...had a quick chat...and, also, handed him all of the spare change money I had inside of a plastic bag...must have amounted to 1 or 2 pounds. 

GRAY'S INN ROAD

A white lady stopped to direct me which way to go to return to King Cross; so I took it. It wasn't difficult just a straight road...; and, then, all of a sudden before I even knew it...I was a Kings Cross station. From there I took Gray's Inn Road.

I did around £5.00 worth of shopping on Gray's Inn Road...inside of a CoOp store. I brought 2 chocolate bars/and, 1 pack of chocolate Twix; and, also, a large bottle of Orange Lucozade. I felt extremely thirsty, and, was getting worried about possible dehydration(which in my time I have suffered before when undertaking long bike journey...all the time you are losing liquid without actually knowing it; that loss of liquids needs to be replaced).

From Grays Inn Road...I gradually made my way to reach Charing Cross -travelling pass the Savoy hotel-; next, I took a side turning...which led me down towards the Embankment. I climbed up the staircase...and, rode along the Embankment bridge all the way to the other side.

WATERLOO, LEAKE STREET TUNNEL

I rode into and around the back of a church in Waterloo; then, continued my journey onwards through Leake Street Tunnel...; then, back, again...; then, out and towards St Thomas Hospital...not all the way there...but, near it...without crossing the street. I passed by a road where an Buddhist temple used to be located; then, rode straight on...down towards Vauxhall. 

TOOTING BROADWAY TUBE STATION

From Vauxhall, I rode straight up to Stockwell; and, then, onto Clapham Common/Clapham Common South/over to Balham/then, over to Tooting Broadway. At Tooting Broadway, I brought myself 2 pieces of chicken and chips; but, all the time, was afraid to touch it with my hands...which I felt might be too dirty. Had to wait to get home before attempting to eat the chips...as I needed desperately to wash both my hands, first.

From Tooting Broadway...I rode my bike along...I think, the road is called, Church Road...and, then, turned right...kept on going straight...until I got to Becmead Avenue(I think, it's called)...and, that road led me into Streatham High Street. I turned right along the high street...and, rode up towards Streatham station. Then, I went down a set of steps...I think, it's Russels Path...which, eventually, led me up a short cut turning...opposite Wellfield Road.  From Well field Road, I turned right...and, into Leighham Court Road...; cut across the road...then, downwards from St Julian School. Eventually, I ended up home.

CONCLUSION: LONG/EXPENSIVE JOURNEY

Boy, that was quite a 'long' journey; and, very 'expensive' trip, too...costing me all of £10.00, at least; which is money I can ill afford!

I'm afraid, that's exactly what tends to happen when you go out for a long trip...without taking any food/drink of your own...namely, you get awfully hungry/thirsty...and, will need to do something about it really 'fast'; otherwise, one ends up suffering from severe 'dehydration'...weakness/tiredness/confusion/lack of energy/strength/wanting to completely 'give up'/sleep. 

Next time, I decide to go out for a really long bike ride...; I swear, I must remember to take along some food/drink with me...as well as, a back pack...which can leave both hands free to cycle with; rather than have the shopping bags hanging off the bikes handle bars...and, constantly, hitting against the bike front wheel...which threatens to tear the bag into shreds...and, have the bag contents go spilling out onto the concrete pavements(a constant worry/fear). 

In my own defence, I really didn't know I was going out for a long ride...I thought I was just going to Brixton; then, back, again; but, the best laid plans of mice and men tends to go 'awry'...even at the very last minute/second.

The streets of Central London are no longer as totally jam packed as they used to be before Choronavirus; there are more and more people, slowly, appearing...but, most places are, in fact, 'closed'.

You can still come across a few places where you can buy food/drinks, though...some MacDonald shops are still open; and, also, a few restaurants/or, general food stores here and there. 

 

 

 

100720 James, scaffolder came to assess roof damage/Mrs. Thomas died of cancer/Phoned Trevor just to 'update'

17:00 PM JAMES, THE SCAFFOLDER CALLED TO ASSESS THE ROOF DAMAGE

First, I got a phone call stating that James would be calling from the company I had recently contacted, yesterday, in just 15 minute time...; to which meeting I agreed.

https://www.jmscaffoldinglondon.com/

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I showed him the three floors where the damage is, including... 

1> The upstairs water tank

I explained that if that upstairs tank isn't leaking; then, it might be due to the blocked gutters outside causing the leak to enter into the building.

2> The toilet/bathroom wall below...which has come away from the rest of the house...including, both top side/front side 

(That entire walls needs to be knocked down/and, then, replaced with a 'new' wall.)

3> The basement roof collapse

There is around 6 foot by 3 foot of damaged roof; meaning collapsed ceiling plaster...leaving just exposed wooden beams up above...which are, actually, rotting away/in an extremely delicate, and, still 'wet' leaky state.

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James said, that really what I need to do is call the 'builders' in to come and fix the damage; because the money I would be paying him...would be taking away from the money needed to call in the builders.

I explained that I'm 'unemployed'...so, that's why I decided to call in the scaffolders, first; because, otherwise, I don't have enough money left in my account to be able to pay off the builders.

James said he would try and install some scaffolding just to hold the roof up; so, that it won't collapse down any further; and, the 'cheapest' he could do it for is at a cost of: £350.00.

 

With that our conversation ended; and, James left...telling me, you already have our phone number; and, web site contact form...so, when you want the work to be done just, simply, call. 

I do remember asking him how long he thinks the process will take; he said, half-an-hour.

What I'm still unsure about is...am I expected to pay regular fees for the hiring of the scaffolding; or, will it just be a a one off payment. Because, frankly, I'm not too sure when I will be able to 'afford' builders to come in and fix all of the damage, permanently.

18:00 SAW DOROTHY THOMAS/SHE EXPLAINED THAT HER MUM, MRS. THOMAS, DIED, RECENTLY

After the builder left...; I decided to go and dump some rotting 'smelly' cat food rubbish from out of the house; and, into the public bin which is located half way down the street.

When I was just around 15 or so yards away from the bin; I heard somebody call my name. I looked back to see Dorothy Thomas...who used to attend my Primary School.

 

We both had a long chat...; like we haven't had in years; who knows, maybe, our longest chat ever.

 

The discussion was about the death of both our mums. Apparently, her mum died, recently; April 2020.I gave her my deepest commiserations. I told her my mum died, November 2019. She said her mum died of cancer; they really weren't too sure...until the diagnosis; then, it was far too late for her to recover, anymore. My aunt -my mum's sister- also died of cancer; didn't want to go to hospital; when she, eventually, did...she did not come out, again...just as she herself had predicted. I also told her how my mum died because she didn't wish to go into hospital; and, when she eventually was 'forced' into going into hospital...she did not come out, again; as she herself had predicted.

20:00 PM PHONED TREVOR TO UPDATE HIM ABOUT THE SITUATION

I phoned, Trevor, just to update him about the current situation going on with the house...that I was thinking about getting in the scaffolding people; and, I'd recently spoken to one called, James; who made me an offer of £350.00 to put in some scaffolding to stop the roof from completely collapsing.

What I wasn't too sure about is...is it 'hire' equipment that I have to keep on, constantly, paying for...; or, it is it to be 'one off' payment, instead.

  

Thu 090720 Meet tomorrow: JMSCAFFOLDINGLONDON.COM/GOV.UK (£15 to re-Download Land registry docs)

10 AM PHONED/WROTE AN EMAIL TO: JMSCAFFOLDINGLONDON.COM

This morning -(with the ceiling/bathroom wall about to collapse playing constantly on my mind)- I decided to do a search for: London Scaffolding...; there were 2 results that looked really interesting...

https://www.londonscaffolding.co.uk/#home

(didn't contact, as yet)

...and, I selected the company which appears to be located closest to where I'm living; they seem to be in Thornton(which, I assume, means: Thornton Heath...I did take a look at the map). 

https://www.jmscaffoldinglondon.com/

I wrote them the following note...

>>>

Hi, the problems I'm having is...I own a 3 storey building/with back-garden:

-(Address goes here...)-

Unfortunately, there was a leak up above which remained 'unfixed' for a long time...; well, eventually, the end result was, with the weight of the water, constantly, coming down/and, also, the rotting wooden ceiling beams...the lower floor ceiling plaster went and fell down...thus, exposing the wooden ceiling beams; only over time those wooden beams have grown steadily 'weaker and weaker' still...with the result that I can't go into the upper floor bathroom/toilet, anymore; and, have to walk very carefully -like walking on eggshells- when entering into the kitchen...which is located next door to the 

 upper bathroom/toilet.

The problem is, I'm currently 'unemployed'; and, therefore, do have very limited savings to go and employ builders to come in and fix everything...tear down walls/replace walls by putting up a 'new' wall...

So, I thought maybe a cheaper, purely 'temporary'  fix, might be to install some scaffolding downstairs to help hold the rest of the ceiling up; however, I'm really not sure if such a plan would be effective; nor how much it would cost...?

So, I would like you to please get in touch with me...to see if it's possible for one of your people to come and take a look; and, then, advise me further about what to do from there? 

I'm assuming a call out to give a 'quote' is FREE.

Bye/-Paul
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14:30 PM GOT A REPLY PHONE CALL FROM: JMSCAFFOLDINGLONDON.COM/ARRANGED A 'FACE TO FACE' MEETING, TOMORROW EVENING

I went to sleep; then, when I awoke...I almost immediately got a phone call from: J M Scaffolding London.

I spoke to a guy who said he'd like to come and see the situation/and, only then can he give me an actual quote.

The meeting is arranged for: 5-6 PM tomorrow evening. He said, he will phone me beforehand, first; just to be sure I'm in; all of which I agreed to.

So, now, there is nothing left to do...; but, merely, just wait.

15:31 PM WENT TO: GOV.UK/SEARCHED TO FIND: LAND REGISTRY

Search for Property Information from HM Land Registry
https://www.gov.uk/search-property-information-land-registry

HM Land Registry
https://eservices.landregistry.gov.uk/eservices/FindAProperty/view/QuickEnquiryInit.do

Find a property - Purchase documents
https://eservices.landregistry.gov.uk/eservices/FindAProperty/view/QDSearch.do;jsessionid=MydNZLiFwLO5CROddDiRCl8KNgOqXbhnmZnDoQRK.20ff324f:frontend-web-0

I did a search at: gov.uk...for 'land registry' documents...where I discovered that it's possible to download at a cost of £15.00...

[  ] £3.00 - Title Register

[  ] £3.00 - Title Plan

[  ] £9.00 - Flood Risk indicator result

The check box allows you to 'pay' for only the documents you most need to view.

NOTE: I did already pay to download 'all' of these same documents just after my mum died; the result of which I sent to myself through email. My problem there is...do I really need to pay to re-download 'all' of these same documents, again? 

The answer there is...the deeds were in the name of both my 'mum and me'; and, someone had said that, automatically, when my mum dies...these documents should revert to being in my own name, alone; however, I wanted to be able to see clear 'updated' proof of this...which is why I wanted to re-purchase/re-download everything.

 

 

Wed 080720 Trevor & his brother came to assess damage.../can't do anything

1 PM GOT A PHONE CALL FROM COUSIN: TREVOR

At around 1 PM I got a phone call from Trevor; saying he was coming to look at the damage to the building/along with his brother.

I missed the call, initially; because I was downstairs...changing the cat litter.

When I came back upstairs...I saw the answer message light 'blinking'...dialled: '1571' (check messages)...and, then, heard the call having been replayed. I phoned Trevor back to say...I hadn't gone nowhere...was just downstairs changing the cat litter.

He said he would come by me in around 3/4's of an hours time. 

2:45 PM TREVOR/AND, HIS BROTHER CAME TO ASSESS DAMAGE

True to his word, he turned up at the door along with his brother...this is one I'd never ever seen before.

-(Actually, he called me, again...this time asking to I live at the wrong number house/so, I told him the right number house.)-

They were both wearing 'masks/gloves' which I thought was really strange; but, then, again, maybe, not...due to the possibility of contracting Choronavirus from anywhere(coloured people are more affected by it than others).

I showed them outside leaking gutters/as well as 3 floors of damage...the downstairs collapsed ceiling/the upstairs collapsing wall/and, too, the water tank on top. 

Trevor's response was, I wouldn't 'touch' it...; meaning, don't put any more money into saving it...; but, instead, sell it off as quickly as is possible before the whole entire building completely collapses; and, then, the house wouldn't be worth nothing.

4 PM DECIDED TO GO FOR A LONG BIKE RIDE...TO GET MY MIND OFF ALL OF MY HOUSE PROBLEMS 

After seeing those guys; and, discovering they can do absolutely nothing to help.

I decided why not go out for a a really long bike ride...; just to be able to get my mind off what is my current problems.

So, I took my bike; opened up the front door/locked it behind me; and, then, off I went...

1. The first place I visited was: Dulwich Picture Gallery. The gate doors were all locked.

(Rode pass Belair Park/stopped my bike at the entrance of Dulwich Park; but, didn't go in...far too many people.)

2. The next place I visited -rode through Brockwell park- was Brixton Halfords bike shop...I saw a queue of 4 people outside...after a while, the shop keeper guy asked me why I was there...I said, I wanted both bike tires pumped up; he said they're not doing that, today; but, I could try another branch somewhere.

3> I went and visited Tate Britain Gallery in Pimlico; again, they were shut. (This time I road down Brixton Road/then, into Kennington/turned, left; cut along Black Prince Road...then, crossed over the River Thames bridge...not Vauxhall bridge/the other one: Lambeth Bridge).

What I did notice, however, is -(even though Tate is shut)- there are are two statues outside...which are not fenced off...so, it might actually be possible to go there and draw these. (I just worry the security guards; as these buildings are, constantly, watched; might come and ask me what the hell it is I'm doing?)

4> From Tate I was 'thinking' about going to visit the city centre; but, then, thought, no...it's time to return home. I went home the long way...going along the Thames route...I really appreciated being in the 'fresh air'/and, 'wide open space'...if being in built up traffic can be called 'wide open space'.

Eventually, I crossed over Albert Bridge...and, from there entered into Battersea Park. Through Battersea Park...coming out at Queenstown Station...and, up towards Clapham Common park.

5> From Clapham Common park...I rode over to Balham...where I did £20.00 shopping at Aldi.

When I came out, I saw a motorcycle crash...the guy got up/and, was able to walk...retrieve his motor cycle. (I thought to myself being on these streets can be really 'dangerous', sometimes.)

6> From Balham Aldi...I rode my bike back home...passing by Tooting Common...then, into Streatham/finally, West Norwood.

CONCLUSION

In all I must have travelled over 10+ miles. Felt really good...; a sort of 'going out' accomplishment...which I haven't done in 6+ months. Also, I got some much needed 'exercise'.

It also felt kinda 'scary', though; as there are so many people on the streets...; and, any one of these could have Choronavirus; people don't always keep a 'safe' distance, neither; not even when you're on a bike/and, at traffic lights being surrounded by people also on bikes...; so, I guess, that's the real reason why I haven't chosen to go out there quite as frequently, anymore.

Mon 060720 Phoned builders/left message - Spoke with builder, Dan/left him my phone number.

11:30 AM AWOKE/CUT THE FRONT HEDGE...BOTH MY SIDE/AND, ALSO, MY NEIGHBOUR KEN'S SIDE

When I awoke; my first thoughts were where is the builders outside van; because, the last time, I spoke to the guy...he said he would put in a 'temporary' measure for £250.00.

However, when I looked across the road, I didn't see their builders van across the street; so, I figured they might not be there.

In the mean time, whilst waiting for their builders van to appear...; I decided now might be a good opportune time to go outside; and, cut down the front hedge. So, I went and cut down both my hedge side/and, also, the side of next door neighbour, Ken.

I was 'thinking' about leaving Ken a note...; but, ultimately, I didn't bother. Not too sure how he's going to react...; after I went and snubbed his child...by not saying 'hello' back...when he spoke to me through the garden fence. 

It's remarkable how small things can lead to big problems, later on, sometimes; big problems that you weren't really expecting. I didn't deliberately snub the child; as I actually 'like' him; but, I was so engrossed in my own problems, at the time, which is why I didn't answer back. Anyway, ultimately, I decided to just, simply, keep 'quiet'; and, basically, leave things like that.

15:00 PM PHONED BUILDERS/LEFT ANSWER MACHINE MESSAGE

I phoned the builders on their mobile number; however, there was only an 'answer machine' response; so, I left a message stating...I was told to go and get the £250.00; and, they would do some 'temporary' work; and, then, I added I would like to discuss pulling down the wall/and, putting up a new wall.

My guess is, these people are from outside of London; so I'm really not too sure if I will get back any response.

15:30 PM SPOKE TO THE BUILDER: DAN

I heard a knock at the door; and, when I went and opened it. I saw a different 'builder' guy from last time; his name is, Dan. He looked a lot younger than the last guy...; the other one -(forgot to get his name)- was aged around 50+; this guy looked to be somewhere around 30+.

I'm not too sure how much to trust this guy; his immediate quote to me was £10,000.00. Then, when I explained that I'm 'unemployed'/and, had many other bills to pay. He said how much can you afford; so, I answered him 4 grand. He said, it's a really big job to have to complete...; according to him the damage extends to cover around 3 floors. 

1> The topmost tank seems to be 'leaking', in my opinion; however, the last guy mentioned it could be something to do with the guttering outside which is causing the leak(and, yes, I agree that is possible; because, the gutter is, usually, blocked with falling leaves; and, the wooden ladder I have out there...is too water logged to be safe enough to climb up to go and clear it).

2> The next floor down, the bathroom is leaking(cold water tap refuses to turn off); bathroom/toilet wall is threatening to collapse...as it has come away from the rest of the wall almost completely.

3> The bottom most ceiling plaster has already fallen down; and, it has exposed the wooden beams up above...which are all totally rotting...due to the constant 'leak' from the bathroom up above.

What I didn't like about this Dan was he tried to pressure me to pay him, immediately, right away; but, I had to keep on telling him...I need some time to think about it. 

His answer was, living in this sort of situation is extremely 'dangerous'; as the whole of the building structure could completely collapse at any time; and, if that ever happens then the whole house would be worth, quite literally, nothing.

I just repeated what was my first stance...that I need some time to be able to 'think' about it...how to organise finances/-etc. 

He said, if you give me 2 grand, now; then, I will go and buy the building materials...; then, I will start work on Tuesday. 

I answered him don't buy anything, yet; because I need to work out if I can get some help from Center 70/-etc.

I also left my phone number on his phone by typing it in.

Finally, the guy left.

20:30 PM  DAN PHONED, AGAIN, WITH A LOWER OFFER: £800.00

I was sitting right beside the phone when I got another phone call from Dan, the builder. This time he offered me a lower offer of £800.00 to do some minimal work.

I told him I would still need time to think about it; because, I'm not the type who is into making decisions, instantly, right away. I will need to very carefully weigh up exactly what all of my options are, first.

His reply was, I should call his partner, Simon, if I wish to get in touch. So, we both dropped the conversation there.

  

Phoned Millicent/Trevor about Builder's price offer.

050720

PHONE MILLICENT AND TREVOR TO ASK WHAT IS THEIR OPINION

Today, I phoned to speak to my cousins: Millicent and Trevor; and, just like my cousin, Sharon, had advised me, yesterday; they think it's far better to try selling the house off...rather than introducing just merely 'temporary' fixes...the builder said £250.00 just to do a 'temporary' fix/and, £4,000.00 to do a more lasting fix.

Otherwise, the place is going to seriously deteriorate further and further; and, with inadequate funds being available...I will not be able to fix things up in time...before it all gets increasingly worse and worse still; because, by that time, the house could end up collapsing, and, being totally 'valueless'.

They said, I need to find out where the Death Certificate is...; and, give it to the solicitors...in order to discover how to change the house deeds into my sole name/and, not both my mum(recently, deceased), and, my names.

MY OWN POSITION

Unfortunately, my family don't fully understand me. I'm autistic; and, us autistic's do NOT take very kindly to accepting 'change'. We would much prefer to 'dream' that absolutely everything must remain exactly the same; and, quite simply, forevermore. 

Only that's not being entirely realistic, I'm afraid; because the truth is that everything in life 'changes', constantly, all the time; and, one must do one's utmost best to adapt to these changes...otherwise, we are quite likely to find ourselves having been left way behind.

I hate to have to make this exact analogy; but, just as with my mum's death; she always said, -and, really quite vehemently- that she didn't wish to go into hospital; and, I myself was really quite happy to play the ever-dutiful son...following her advice, alone; and, ignoring what everybody else says; when the family had advised me that I should send her into hospital straight away. Who knows, maybe if I did listen to them sooner rather than later...in the end, she had to be turned in to the doctors, anyway...as she wasn't eating/drinking/moving/and, was seriously, losing weight; she would still be 'alive', and, moving, right now; as opposed to lying perfectly still inside of the grave dead.

Similarly, they are advising me to 'sell the house' before it all becomes totally destroyed/decayed/with certain parts already falling down/rotting away/leaks/cracks/holes everywhere. But, I'm having a really difficult time when attempting to come to grips with that particular 'reality'; and, instead, I just seem to think...if I quite 'blindly' sit back; and, merely do nothing...then, the house will be able to stay all in 'one' piece.

The truth is, however...as the current state of the bathroom shows...where the wall has gone and completely detached itself from the top roof/and, also, door sides...that if absolutely nothing is 'fixed'; then, things are going to deteriorate very badly, indeed; even to the point of becoming totally unmanageable, anymore.

 

The other thing which does seriously frighten me...is where the hell am I going to move to...and, what will that place/people be alike? I've had the experience where I moved to somewhere; and, absolutely hated it...had to move back here, instead; I stayed there 10+ years feeling totally unhappy...became Agoraphobic, in fact. That truly bitter experience does seriously haunt me still...in fact, it left me with feelings of PTSD/Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome(which I've still not gotten over completely, yet). 

You see, part of the problem is, that I am not a socialite...I'm private/don't want any company; and, only love to keep myself to myself; so, this makes it extremely difficult for me to be able to get along successfully with others. Having to go deal with my personality type demands great skill/and, patience/also, loads of forgiveness...as I tend to make all of the same kinds of social mistakes, really quite endlessly, again and again.

In normal life...you just don't get that kind of deeply caring/and, understanding atmosphere. If you don't talk; then, people think you are stuck up/rude/-etc.; and, then, they immediately put you down. Or, if you are in any way, 'different'...; this is another reason why they will tend to pick on you absolutely non-stop. 

Me, I need time to study(read/research using the internet)/practice programming/do drawing/painting/-etc. 

I'm not the type who you will ever see inside of a pub drinking; nor am I the partying type, neither. 

The most places i tend to go and visit is 'quiet' places such as public libraries/art galleries/museums...; and, even inside of those places...I have tremendous difficulties whenever attempting to socialise with others.

So, you see, for me 'moving home' is an extremely difficult prospect to even 'think' about. Then, there is so much stuff to move; how on earth am I going to get it all to fit into a much smaller place...?! And, what sort of things will I loose...

In my minds eye, I think, it would be nice to have a place with Concierge...so that all comings/and goings are carefully monitored both night/day;  and, there is no 'instant' access for visitors. At the same time, I need to have the 'freedom' to do as I please/when I please...meaning both come/and, go...and, also, keep my cat, possibly...when I'm living inside of the premises...so, I worry about my 'freedom' being taken away, too...what will be the internal rules? On top of all this, I'm currently aged 57...therefore, I wish to be placed amongst older people where it's 'safe'; as opposed to living amongst the young...fit, strong, dangerous.

On the other hand, the kind of place I'm describing is really for people who are either mentally/physically ill...; and, in such a way, that they can't help themselves; which doesn't describe me at all, actually. Yes, I have a few mental disorders: Extreme shyness(which some claim mean, anti-social; which I do totally disagree with; it's just that I only open up to people who I do feel most truly comfortable with)/BiPolar/ADD/Asperger's Syndrome; and, I also have a number of physical illnesses, too; but, absolutely nothing which says i cannot think/or, interact with other people without help; plus, my age, 57 is still relatively 'young'...; so, those 'older people' homes might not suit me at all; nor would I want to go there...and, be surrounded by people who are 60/70/90+/or else, who are mentally unfit.

So, it's not a case of I don't ever think about these things...; but, I'm just not sure where to locate to...; nor for how much? I tried doing a few online searches...to find...properties with Concierge services...; and, the prices are just, quite simply, ridiculous: £3,000.00  per week/-etc.; there is no way in the world that I will ever be able to afford that...unless I was a millionaire(which, of course, I'm not...instead, I'm a relatively 'poor' person..who is living off the dole)!

So, for me, the whole idea of 'moving home' is certainly not an easy choice to have to make; in fact,  really and truly, it's 'scary'; they say that moving home is one of the most difficult things for anybody to do if life; as it totally uproots you.

 

040720 Amazon book delivery/donated to Emmaeus/called builder in to give estimate/phoned Sharon

VISITED THE TIP HALF WAY DOWN THE ROAD/THEN, EMMAEUS

Just as I was going down the road...; first, I saw the next door neighbour...a 'black' guy called, Ken; who was strapping his son in the back of a car; there was just a stony 'silence' that passed between us; not even one single word of 'hello'. I just pretended to completely ignore him; and, he me; and, basically, that was that.

It's not that I didn't wish to talk and apologise for having ignored his child when he tried saying, 'hello', to me through the back garden fence, yesterday. I don't know how to explain that so many other things were going on through my mind; that I found it really difficult to talk. 

But, my personal interactions with other people doesn't tend to be as 'smooth' like so many other people; nor am I particularly self-confident about what the other persons reaction might be...will he get really mad; and,  then, maybe, want to hit me...will things escalate...which is the very last thing I wish to happen...?! 

Like some people when you try and talk to them...instead, of them winding down; they just go up and up. So, I guess, I decided to leave the situation to cool down over time...; as opposed to, quite deliberately, 'forcing' anything. 

SAW POSTMAN

At the same time, I saw the postman arrive who delivered to me a Hutchinson's encyclopedia that I'd brought fairly cheaply from off eBay. £1.56 + £2.80 P&P = £4.36.

I opened the door back up, again; and, left the encyclopedia at the foot of the door, inside; then, I continued off on my journey down the road.

VISITED TIP

I went down the road to go dump some rubbish which I had collected from the garden into the public tip that lies half way down the road.

VISITED EMMAEUS

From there I walked down to visit the first Emmaeus charity shop; to find they were, now, open...an assistant lady sprayed my hands before I walked in. I looked around for a bit; and, seeing nothing I desperately 'wanted'...; therefore, I left. 

VISITED GROCERY/NEWSAGENT

I went and visited the local grocery/newsagent shop where they also sell some cat food; in there I brought 4 x boxes of dry cat food @ £1.15 each. I used a 'cash' fiver to pay for everything.

After I came out of the grocery shop/newsagent...I walked across the road to go visit the 2nd Emmaeus charity shop which is across the road from the grocery shop/newsagent. When I went in there a lady sprayed my hands, again; and, I checked out both what they had upstairs/downstairs. Didn't buy anything; just left.

RETURNED HOME/OPENED PARCEL/GAVE PARCEL AWAY TO EMMAEUS

Next, I came back up the road; and, when I arrived back inside the home; I opened up the book parcel that came from Worldbooks. When I looked at the really 'thick' Hutchinson encyclopedia I brought...it must have been over 500+ pages; I wasn't too pleased that the writing looked to be really 'small'; as time progresses on...my eyesight certainly isn't the same as it used to be before. Furthermore, I seem to enjoy reading on the internet/where not only is the writing far larger in size; but, also, there are many more articles that it's possible to search for.

Anyway, my own conclusion was...that I really don't need this book version of the Hutchinson Encyclopedia; and, thus, I decided to get rid of it...by going down the road and visiting  the first Emmaeus charity shop, again; and, leaving it with them as a donation. When I arrived at the first Charity shop...they said they would not accept taking donations, anymore; and, therefore, I must go across the road...and, deposit it with their other Charity shop, instead. This is exactly what I did.

INVITED THE BUILDERS IN

When I walked back up the road, I saw a van marked builders:

S J Painting Building Services

0208 485 8069

074 7347 2377

Repeatedly, I tried calling the first number: 0208...but, that seemed to be, constantly, 'engaged'; so, instead, I tried calling the 'mobile' phone, instead; and, sure enough it was answered, immediately, right away. I gave the man who answered my details stating that I lived a few houses up across the road; and, I need some work to be done on the house...the roofing plaster downstairs collapsed; and, there are huge gaps in the bathroom walls above it.  The guy said he would come an look in around 5 minutes time.

So, I waited...in around 10 or so minutes an ageing builder man appeared. I showed him the damage to the roof below...where the ceiling plaster had collapsed; the said it looks like you've had a serious leak...; and, I told him there is a bathroom up above; which I next proceeded to show him, as well. He said, the gaps in the walls are not necessarily about subsidence...and, therefore, I must not get confused; instead, he thinks it's all due to the roof rafters below...being too weak...which has caused the bathroom walls to collapsed by inches. He also explained that this situation was extremely 'dangerous'...and, that the bathroom wall could, in fact, collapse completely at almost any time...he also said the weight is really heavy weighing, quite literally, 'tons'...!

So, finally, I asked him the bottom line; which is how much would it cost to fix?

He answered, that for safety...one should completely demolish the current wall; and, instead, put a new wall up; that would cost £4,000.00.

Next, I requested is there any 'cheaper' way to deal with it?

He replied...that I should do this/and, do that...and, then, of course, I explained to him that I myself am not a builder; so, how much would it cost for him to put in place the 'temporary' measures'...to try and hold the roof up...when as he himself had said, 'nothing is holding it up'.

He told me £250.00; and, that he's currently working across the road; if I come and see him on Monday...he will try.

After say this, he left.

PHONED MY COUSIN SHARON TO HEAR WHAT IS HER OPINION

Basically, she said I need to 'sell the house'; otherwise, it will totally demolish itself. You've inherited a 'run down' property; and, fixing up a bit here...a bit there...isn't really going to work; you need to sell it off, instead; and, buy a 'new' property that's much smaller to be able to live in.

Frankly, none of that advice exactly pleases me to be able to hear; but, I can fully understand why she might say that...because it's true this property is, seriously, 'run down'...and, therefore, needs a whole lot of money to fix...money which I've not even got...because, I'm not working...and, can't find any suitable job...so,...?!

030720 Clearing the backgarden overgrowth/fell out with the neighbours/phoned Millicent

NEIGHBOUR DISPUTE/NOT TALKING TO ME, ANYMORE...BECAUSE I WENT AND SNUBBED THEIR CHILD

(There is a huge build up of backgarden debris which as built up unchecked for around 1 and 1/2 years long. I'm not a back garden type of person...so, I hardly ever go out there. Nevertheless, looking through the windows I can see the massive mess...extending going from top down to bottom.) 

Yesterday, I went out into my own backgarden; where I decided to start cutting down the lose/or, dead branches...and, tearing up the utterly useless weeds; to go throw away, later. 

Well, one of the next door neighbours children said, 'Hello,' to me...; but, as, number I, I couldn't actually 'see' them through the tall garden fence; and, number 2, I was too deeply engaged on doing what I was doing...which was clearing stuff up; therefore, I didn't bother answering them back.

This, unfortunately, was a really big mistake to 'ignore' them...; as both of their parents seem to be, really and truly, mad at me...; and, in fact, we are no longer on 'talking' terms, anymore...it's now pure 'silence'; which I see as being a pity...as I kind of liked them.

On the other hand, it's also like a bit of a 'test'; if you haven't actually done them any major wrong, yet; and, already, they've have chosen to go and behave like that...; then, who knows what would have happened if you had done them something seriously wrong, then...?!

The way I like to play it with the neighbours is to stay the hell away from them as far as is possible.

The fact is, I severely lack self-confidence; I'm autistic: Asperger's Syndrome; I also suffer from ADD-Attention Deficit Disorder/BiPolar/and, also, severe shyness/I also have some facial disfigurements/-etc. Furthermore, I'm not as 'fighting fit' as when I was young. So, being that I'm extremely awkward socially speaking; therefore, I prefer to play it perfectly 'safe' by just keeping myself strictly to myself; because, I know, that participating in any sort of neighbourly interaction could possibly spell serious trouble for me either sooner or later.

PHONED MILLICENT

Yesterday, I phoned my cousin, Millicent; and, told her that things were tough...being all alone with nobody to chat to; she said other people have to suffer the same, too; especially, the over 60's+...with which I had to agree.

(I overheard heard her husband, Trevor, speaking in the background; but, didn't actually talk to him, personally.)

I mentioned to her that I was attempting to go learn, maths; and, was finding it extremely difficult. She said, she had the same sort of difficulties.

At the close of our conversation...she said I must tell Sharon, 'hello'; to which I answered, yes, I would remember to do that.

(I think, this might be the 3rd phone call I made to Millicent in a week; whereas, normally, I don't tend to call them more than once in 3 to 6 months. I don't want to call them too frequently...in case she might just get sick of me!)