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Table of contents:-
- 8 PM-5 AM THE USUAL LATE NIGHT/EARLY MORNING INSOMNIA
- 02:00 TEMPTATION: GAMBLED/WILLIAM HILL FREE BETS: WON £3.XX/THEN, NEXT, ROULETTE: £3 -> £5.13/WITHDREW: £5.00
- 05:00 WATCHED TV/INTERNET: YOU TUBE, SLEPT
- 12:00 AWOKE: THINKING ABOUT VISITING PAXTON GREEN TIMEBANK/FOODBANK BETWEEN 12 - 4 PM/(DIDN'T GO: NEXT WEEK TUE, MAYBE..?)
- 12:30 COOKED: RICE/SARDINES/TIN CAN OF: CHILLI CONCARNE: HAD 3 X HELPINGS - MADE FRENCH STICK BREAD/COOKHAM SANDWICHES - BOWL OF FRUIT: DICED APPLES/DATES/GRAPEFRUIT
- 13:00 WATCHED TV/INTERNET: YOU TUBE, SLEPT
- 20:30 AWOKE: FINISHED DINNER
- 22:20 HAVE TO GO OUT TO BUY MY CAT SOME MORE FOOD: BECAUSE, I'VE TOTALLY RUN OUT OF CAT FOOD POUCHES...OK, BROUGHT ENOUGH CAT FOOD TO LAST A WEEK/DON'T HAVE TO RUN OUT THERE EVERY SINGLE DAY, ANYMORE
- 23:30 DIDN'T EXERCISE: NOT FIT, ANYMORE...EXPERIENCING HAVING ALL SORTS OF ACHES AND PAINS...; WENT OUT DID JUST A LITTLE BIT OF 'SKIPPING' REALLY LATE...
- CONCLUSION: GAMBLING/EXERCISE
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- 8 PM-5 AM THE USUAL LATE NIGHT/EARLY MORNING INSOMNIA
As usual, I tend to remain 'wide awake' during the late evening/nights...all the way up until when next early morning comes...finally, nodding off...; and, then, going to sleep somewhere around 5 AM.
Most of that time is spent either watching TV/Internet.
TV...
- News (like to catch up with the 'latest' that's, currently, going on...)
- crime channels/police shows/border policing
- travel
- etc.
Internet...
- Checking emails
- Reading/Writing/Replying to Facebook messages...including IM/Instant Message chat
- Checking out YouTube movies
- etc.
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- 02:00 TEMPTATION: GAMBLED/WILLIAM HILL FREE BETS: WON £3.XX/THEN, NEXT, ROULETTE: £3 -> £5.13/WITHDREW: £5.00
The bookies, William Hills, keeps on sending me regular daily emails...offering me FREE bets.
I try my best to resist it...; but, sometimes, I just end up 'giving in'...; thinking to myself...well it is a FREE bet...so, I'm NOT losing any 'real' money...?
-(Even, though, doing FREE bets...; will, eventually, lead to gambling using 'real' money, instead; and, especially so when one is a self-confessed 'gambling addict'...who once I 'start' gambling...really doesn't know how to stop...?!)-
So, one of their emails said...get 5 FREE spins...; and, I was sorely 'tempted' to go find out exactly what my luck would be alike...???
I clicked on the email offer...; and, was led to go 'sign in' to William Hill web site...; where I made the FREE 5 spins. Much to my surprise, it 'won'; and, all of a sudden, my previous remaining balance which was near nil...said: £3.xx.
Next, I thought to myself...why not try and use that £3.xx to gamble on Roulette, instead(which is my favourite game, btw); and, again, I 'won'...this time my closing balance said: £5.13p. I decided to withdraw £5.00 back to my current a/c. card; and, leave just £0.13p inside of the a/c.
I reasoned that whenever I awake...I can, then, go out and buy some much needed cat food.
Yea, cool. I had a nice night! ;-)
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- 05:00 WATCHED TV/INTERNET: YOU TUBE, SLEPT
I believe, after lying in bed...watching both TV/Internet: YouTube...I went to sleep at around 5 AM...early morning.
Though, the real truth is, I really can't recall 'exactly' when I fell asleep...; all I know is, one minute I was lying back in bed awake...and, watching TV/Internet...constantly, using the Remote Control to hop/change channels...; and, then, suddenly, I fell asleep, at some point.
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- 12:00 AWOKE: THINKING ABOUT VISITING PAXTON GREEN TIMEBANK/FOODBANK BETWEEN 12 - 4 PM/(DIDN'T GO: NEXT WEEK TUE, MAYBE..?)
When I awoke, it was close to mid-day...; and, I was thinking, today, is Tuesday; and, Paxton Green Timebank/Foodbank...that I had signed up for online...would be open, now...anywhere between 12 noon - 4 PM.
However, the truth is, my mind became 'distracted'...doing either this or that...; which mean I missed going to the Foodbank meeting; oh, well, that can wait...until when next week Tue comes.
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- 12:30 COOKED: RICE/SARDINES/TIN CAN OF: CHILLI CONCARNE: HAD 3 X HELPINGS - MADE FRENCH STICK BREAD/COOKHAM SANDWICHES - BOWL OF FRUIT: DICED APPLES/DATES/GRAPEFRUIT
I felt hungry...; and, so decided to make some stuff...
- Brown rice/Sardines/Chilli concarne
- Fruit bowl: Diced apple/sprinkled with around 7 dates/2 slices of grapefruit(Vitamin C)
- Sandwiches: French Stick Bread/plus, slices of Cookham
When the rice did, finally, cook...; I believe in all...I had around 3 x helpings...before the rice was, finally, done/finished.
Ate the 'sweet' fruit/dates.
Left the cookham sandwiches inside of the fridge to eat/snack on, later.
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- 13:00 WATCHED TV/INTERNET: YOU TUBE, SLEPT
Again, I watched TV(Judge Judy/Crime Channels/Travel: Buying a house in the country/-etc.)/internet: YouTube channels...then, at some point slept.
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- 20:30 AWOKE: FINISHED DINNER
When I next awoke it was late evening...; and, I decided to heat up the dinner pot...; now, all of the rice is fully finished.
All that's left to eat is...
- Cookham sandwiches in the fridge
- 3 x loaves of brown bread to make peanut butter/chocolate spread sandwiches
- etc.
I've completely run out of...
- Bananas
- Tangerines
- Cucumber
- etc.
When you are living on a 'low' income...then, things like: money, food/drink...tends to run out really 'fast'...; and, thus, you feel you are, always, 'living on the edge'...?!
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- 22:20 HAVE TO GO OUT TO BUY MY CAT SOME MORE FOOD: BECAUSE, I'VE TOTALLY RUN OUT OF CAT FOOD POUCHES...OK, BROUGHT ENOUGH CAT FOOD TO LAST A WEEK/DON'T HAVE TO RUN OUT THERE EVERY SINGLE DAY, ANYMORE
Another thing I'm very deeply 'aware' of is...I've completely
run out of cat food pouches...; so, will have to walk/run down the road to go buy some more.
Normally, I would buy a lot of cat food to last 3 or so months; but, when I'm 'broke'...; then, I have to go out and buy cat food pouches costing £0.85p, regularly.
It's a pain...; but, another way to look at it is...I do have to 'go out'...and, thus, get some 'fresh air' into my lungs; plus, I will be tempted to exercise just a little bit...by either walking/running.
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Eventually, I went out 'late'...the West Norwood CoOp supermarket stores closes at 11 PM...and, I left home around 10:30 PM; but, I can get there in 15 minutes if I 'run'.
I brought some £10.20 of cat food pouches/as well as, £5.00 of tuna cat food pouches; so, in all, I spent £15.20 on just 1 weeks long of cat food supply.
At least, I will no longer have to keep on going out on the streets...just to buy cat food, anymore; well, at least, not until when next weeks comes.
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I had £5.00 worth of change left...on my debit card. So, I brought 2 x packs of doughnut's...custard & cream/and, the other one Jam doughnuts.
And, basically, I left the shop...pretty much totally flat broke...with less than £2/or, £3.00 left inside of my current a/c.
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I recall taking a 'short cut' home...by walking past St Luke's Church yard...; where I saw some guy sleeping on the concrete pavement...using a sleeping bag.
(I wasn't actually near him...; but, walking on the other side of the street pavement.)
I was thinking I should give him one of the packets of doughnuts I'd brought. But, then, I thought, again...; like if it was me...would he buy me anything, I wonder...? Somehow, I do very much doubt it. So, I just kept on walking...
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I often have a lot of 'empathy' with other people...thinking to myself...if that was me...would I wish others to treat me good/or, badly...? So, I will often go out of my way to treat other people well...; but, the reality is, if that were me...an awful lot of people would just totally 'ignore' me/or, even worse, mock me for being so poor...saying why don't that street bum go find himself a job, instead...?!
(If only things were always that perfectly simple, straight forwards, and, easy. A lot of street people got problems...of one kind or another...concerning either mental/physical health...or, indeed, possibly, a mixture of both.)
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- 23:30 DIDN'T EXERCISE: NOT FIT, ANYMORE...EXPERIENCING HAVING ALL SORTS OF ACHES AND PAINS...; WENT OUT DID JUST A LITTLE BIT OF 'SKIPPING' REALLY LATE...
Yesterday, I do recall going out into the alleyway...to take a video of my practicing doing some 'skipping'.
However, the side effect of that was...my ankles/ball of the foot started to make me feel some 'pain'.
This sort of thing never happened to be before when I was 'younger' and did practice doing some skipping.
I guess, it's what happens...when you don't use your body enough to exercise...such as, walk/run/jump.
I will, of course, practice doing some more 'skipping'...that is, whenever my body feels up to it.
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Well, I decided I'm not going to let a whole entire day go by...without me having done some 'skipping'; so, at around 11:30 PM...I went out and tried it. Wasn't too very successful...the rope keeps on getting trapped beneath my feet. But, at least, I tried doing something...as opposed to doing absolutely nothing.
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CONCLUSION: GAMBLING/EXERCISE
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GAMBLING
Gotta watch the gambling...; it's a huge temptation, especially, when one is broke. You think to yourself...I've only got £1.00...so, why not gamble...and, then, maybe, 'double/triple/quadruple' it/-etc.; but, the thing one tends to forget is...the gambling odds are always set against your winning anything...; this means the longer is the time you choose to remain there gambling for...; then, more and more likely it is you will, eventually, lose...all of your original stake bet/plus, any winnings.
The other scenario which tends to happen to me, quite regularly, is...; today, I bet and won £5.00; but, then, tomorrow I'm tempted to go back there...and, bet say £10.00...with the intention of 'doubling' my money...and, do run into a 'losing streak'...which means I lost it 'all'. The lesson being...whatever I 'won' at the bookies...; I will, usually, go and 'lose' at some point during the future. Most certainly, if I were to add up all that I went and lost...compared to how much I won...then, I lost at least 10 times more than I ever did win.
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EXERCISE
Gotta take it easy on exercise as one grows older. Too much strain...is NOT good for the body...something might just break...?!
The way to go...is, always, listen to what you body is telling you...; if it says, stop...then, just stop...until whenever you are feeling much better, again.
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