Wednesday, 10 May 2023
Tue 090523 INGEUS/Appointment re-arranged/Visited Tate Britain/Brought 'fish n chips/sausage'
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- 00:09 STILL AWAKE: THE USUAL INSOMIA
- 11:15 WENT TO INGEUS/ARRIVED JUST ON TIME...BUT, NO HOUSING COUNSELLOR AVAILABLE TO SEE ME...?! RE-ARRANGED A DIFFERENT APPOINTMENT DATE, INSTEAD
- 13:00 - 18:00 VISITED TATE BRITAIN GALLERY IN PIMLICO
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- 00:09 STILL AWAKE: THE USUAL INSOMIA
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- 11:15 WENT TO INGEUS/ARRIVED JUST ON TIME...BUT, NO HOUSING COUNSELLOR AVAILABLE TO SEE ME...?! RE-ARRANGED A DIFFERENT APPOINTMENT DATE, INSTEAD
I arrived at Ingeus...at 11:15 on the dot. But, the housing officer wasn't even there to see me...?!
So, we had to re-arrange another appointment.
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- 13:00 - 18:00 VISITED TATE BRITAIN GALLERY IN PIMLICO
Took an iPad 4 with me...; so, took many photos...which I, later on, uploaded into Facebook.
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- 19:00 BROUGHT 'FISH N CHIPS/WITH SAUSAGE IN BATTER'
I had a £10.00 note left...; and, used that to buy some 'fish n chips/together with sausage in batter'.
Coming up the road/alley way...I spoke to a neighbour...who I informed I was now aged, 60; and, he said he would cut down the fence for me as a birthday present.
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Monday, 8 May 2023
Mon 080523 Awoke: Bad dream(insects)/Phoned doctor-Bank Holiday/-etc.
Mon 080523
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- 12:58 AWOKE: BAD DREAM/LOADS OF INSECTS SEEN CRAWLING AROUND INSIDE OF THE BEDROOM...?!
- 13:30 PHONED DOCTOR/BANK HOLIDAY/CLOSED...CALL, AGAIN, TOMORROW
- 17:35 GOTTA FEED THE CAT 6 PM EVENING
- 20:00 MADE DINNER : BAKED BEANS AND EGGS/BROWN BREAD WITH BUTTER - ALSO, MADE COOKHAM SANDWICHES TO EAT AS SNACKS, LATER ON
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- 12:58 AWOKE: BAD DREAM/LOADS OF INSECTS SEEN CRAWLING AROUND INSIDE OF THE BEDROOM...?!
I had yet another bad dream...where because I have a fear of insects; so, there is this psychological technique, commonly, known as 'flooding'...where whatever the person most fears...; then, you just put them right in there...with the thing they most fear...; and, that's meant to help them get over it.
So, the male doctor put insects all over my tall cabinet...; and, it was completely covered in the things...large 1 inch dark black round insects/with wings. -(I don't remember them flying, though?)
And, then, when I complained/'screamed' that I really couldn't stand it, anymore...as I can't relax/sleep...due to endless stress/worrying...; then, the doctor put some more inside of the bedroom.
At that point I, all of as sudden, woke up...!
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Trying to think what might have caused this dream, in particular...
- Apart from that I eat quite a bit before going off to sleep...; because I was 'hungry'; and, going to sleep on a full/or, even, half-full stomach...does not mean you will rest comfortably...as the food hasn't had proper time to fully digest, yet.
- Too, I keep on worrying that the leaky roof upstairs...due to the endless rain we have here in England...is about to cave in...; and, then, all of the flies/insects/moths/creepy crawlies...will come crawling in...going all over the house.
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- 13:30 PHONED DOCTOR/BANK HOLIDAY/CLOSED...CALL, AGAIN, TOMORROW
Later, after realising it's, now, Monday...I decided to go call the doctors...to see if they have set a date for my physiotherapy...? However, the answer machine said...it's Bank Holiday so there will be no one answering the phone until, tomorrow, Tuesday.
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- 17:35 GOTTA FEED THE CAT 6 PM EVENING
After I awoke, earlier...I did go downstairs to feed the cat; then, let her out into the back garden.
Now, the time is nearing 6 PM...I have to let the cat back in...feed her, once more...; then, let her out.
(That is, if she wants to go out; I always give her a 'choice'...by leading her to the garden door; then, opening it...if she wants to...she'll immediately go out...; but, if not...then, she'll just look outside...but, not move...I take that to mean she doesn't want to go out...; and, so, shut back the garden door, again...leaving her to stay in.)
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- 20:00 MADE DINNER : BAKED BEANS AND EGGS/BROWN BREAD WITH BUTTER - ALSO, MADE COOKHAM SANDWICHES TO EAT AS SNACKS, LATER ON
If only I had more money...then, I would buy myself some far better food; but, as it is, for the moment, I just have to 'struggle' on...making the minimum sort of thing.
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Sun 070523 Gambled for FREE/Studied: OU/Duolingo: French/Bad dream
Sun 070523
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- 00:31 SIGNED INTO: LADBROKES ONLINE...WITH THE INTENTION OF WANTING TO PLAY 'FREE' GAMES
-00:55 SIGNED INTO: WILLIAM HILLS ONLINE...WITH THE INTENTION OF WANTING TO PLAY 'FREE' GAMES
- 01:05 SIGNED INTO: THE OPEN UNIVERSITY...IN ORDER TO STUDY SOME 'FREE' SHORT COURSES: THE ENLIGHTENMENT
- 01:27 SIGNED INTO: DUOLINGO...TO GO AND PRACTICE LEARNING FRENCH
- 21:00 AWOKE: BAD DREAM: (FAMILY RIVALRIES GONE 'MAD' )...!!! DISCOVERED I'D LEFT THE POT BURNING...FORGOT TO TURN IT OFF...BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP!
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- 00:31 SIGNED INTO: LADBROKES ONLINE...WITH THE INTENTION OF WANTING TO PLAY 'FREE' GAMES
I signed into my Ladbrokes online a/c. hoping to spin the wheel...and, win something such as FREE spins; however, this time I didn't actually win anything...?!
- https://sports.ladbrokes.com/
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-00:55 SIGNED INTO: WILLIAM HILLS ONLINE...WITH THE INTENTION OF WANTING TO PLAY 'FREE' GAMES
I had 5 x FREE spins...but, once again, I didn't win anything...?!
- https://sports.williamhill.com/betting/en-gb
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- 01:05 SIGNED INTO: THE OPEN UNIVERSITY...IN ORDER TO STUDY SOME 'FREE' SHORT COURSES: THE ENLIGHTENMENT
Decided to take my brain away from 'gambling'; and, go put it on learning something, instead.
So, I signed into The Open University...where I opted to do a FREE 'short course'...called: The Enlightenment.
- https://www.open.edu/openlearn/free-courses/full-catalogue
- https://www.open.edu/openlearn/history-the-arts/history-art/the-enlightenment/content-section-0
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- 01:27 SIGNED INTO: DUOLINGO...TO GO AND PRACTICE LEARNING FRENCH
- https://www.duolingo.com
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- 21:00 AWOKE: BAD DREAM: (FAMILY RIVALRIES GONE 'MAD' )...!!! DISCOVERED I'D LEFT THE POT BURNING...FORGOT TO TURN IT OFF...BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP!
I awoke after having a really bad dream; close family rivalries having gone completely MAD...; then, just before I was about to get 'killed', all of a sudden, I wake up...!!!
When, I do awake...I get a really bad smell inside of the house...; then, I remember, I left the sausages on the fire...; and, fell asleep...; forgetting to turn it off....?!
So, I rush downstairs...and, head straight into the kitchen...turning off the fire underneath the pot.
In this particular case, having a bad dream really does make sense...in that it's a sort of wake up call...serving as being a 'reminder'.
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I do recall having eaten a lot of food before having gone off to bed...; and, with the food 'undigested' inside of my stomach...; that sort of thing would set off me having 'uncomfortable' dreams.
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Actually, the bad dream works on both counts...as our intense family rivalry still continues...even, now, today. I don't talk to my cousin/and, of course, vice versa...silver tongued as the Devil himself is...; being anywhere near him makes my own blood run totally 'cold'.
A f-ing psycho...as charming as a snake is...just when you're thinking to yourself, 'how cute'...; then, all of a sudden, it bites...and, very bitterly! I am extremely loathe to place any trust in him at all...; so, I keep the hell away...in case something serious between us really does go wrong. (Too much water has gone under the bridge, as they say; leaving no other room in the relationship...other than the aim for 'revenge'...!)
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Friday, 5 May 2023
Sat 060523 SKIPPED/RAN-KING'S COORONATION/BROUGHT CHICKEN & FRIES/WN CEMETARY/GAMBLING: FREE GAMES
Sat 060523
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Table of contents:-
- 00:50 SKIPPED/RAN...IN A 'PARANOID' SORT OF WAY...IS ANYBODY WATCHING ME...?!
- 01:15 THINKING ABOUT THE KING'S COORONATION THAT'S DUE TO HAPPEN, LATER ON, TODAY...SHALL I GO OUT TO JOIN IN WITH THE CROWDS/OR ELSE, STAY IN WATCHING EVERYTHING ON TV...?
- 16:00 RE-AWOKE: FIRST THING I DID WAS...WATCH SEEING THE CORONATION ON TV
- 16:20 PM DECIDED TO GO AND BUY SOME 'CHICKEN AND FRIES' TO CELEBRATE THE KING'S CORONATION
- 16:40 PM BEFORE RETURNING HOME...WENT TO VISIT WEST NORWOOD CEMETARY
- 17:40 RETURNED BACK HOME/FED THE CAT
- 20:00 PLAYED WILLIAM HILL FREE GAMES/5 x FREE SPINS: WON £0.24p.
- 20:14 WATCHING: FACEBOOK: POKERSTARSUK/LIVE TOURNAMENT
- 20:26 SIGNED IN TO WILLIAM HILL POKER...IN ORDER TO PLAY 10p GAMES...LOST EVERYTHING!
- 23:06 SIGNED INTO LADBROKES ONLINE A/C...HAD 3 FREE SPINS: WON: 30p
- CONCLUSION
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- 00:50 SKIPPED/RAN...IN A 'PARANOID' SORT OF WAY...IS ANYBODY WATCHING ME...?!
I went outside...and, both 'skipped/ran'...inside of the alleyway.
The truth is, it's in my nature wanting to be as fit as I possibly can be; as I really 'hate' it being 'out of shape'...which makes me feel just awful...especially, when I know I could do far better.
All the time, I'm constantly 'aware' of all that's going on around me...
- Is anybody peering at me through their windows...?
- Is anybody behind the alley way coming up...with my back being turned towards them...?
I nearly always tend to become completely 'paranoid' when I'm around people.
I bet, if I were living in the countryside...with wide open areas...then, I would just exercise, regularly...without feeling I have to keep on looking right over my shoulder...just in order to make sure that nobody is watching.
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I'm not exactly too sure exactly where the source of this 'paranoia' does come from; but, I do remember people, constantly, criticising me when I was younger...out of sheer jealousy, envy, spite, meanness, prejudice/-etc.; this sort of really bad behaviour...tended to make me withdraw into a safety shell...which, at it's worst, does actually become full blown housebound Agoraphobia.
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I tried skipping by using 'alternate legs' technique; but, I have to admit...I didn't do it terribly successfully...meaning, the rope kept on getting all tangled up around my two feet. Nevertheless, as long as I re-set...and, continue skipping for say 5/10 minutes...then, that's all fine with me.
Ran 'slowly' down the alleyway...; then, back up, again, going as 'fast' as possible. It's so important to get that heart rate beating 'fast...; and, this is why I've always much preferred doing running to walking.; however, as we grow older...then, we need to, very carefully, consider and accommodate...what we can do/and, also, that which we can't do anymore. In short, I try not to 'overdo' it, if possible...giving it say 60%...rather than the full 100%.
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- 01:15 THINKING ABOUT THE KING'S COORONATION THAT'S DUE TO HAPPEN, LATER ON, TODAY...SHALL I GO OUT TO JOIN IN WITH THE CROWDS/OR ELSE, STAY IN WATCHING EVERYTHING ON TV...?
I really liked the Queen; and, also, I do like Prince Charles...because, essentially, I feel that he's a nice sort of guy...decent, respectful, loving, caring, warm. So, therefore, I feel really very pleased that he is, now, due to be crowned.
The only thing I keep on thinking about is...should I go out there to watch...amongst the crowds...; in large throngs of people...it's certainly possible that I won't even be able to see anything...?!
So, maybe, I'd be much better off staying home...and, just watching the event on 'close up' TV, instead; because, the camera's do cover seeing absolutely everything...going from 'start to finish'.
However, I'm also 'aware'...that there is no better feeling than, actually, being there...; especially, at such a 'rare' event, indeed. So, being a part of the crowd...can be really exciting. Plus, even if I don't get to see the Prince being crowned. I am sure to see so many people, at least.
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- 16:00 RE-AWOKE: FIRST THING I DID WAS...WATCH SEEING THE CORONATION ON TV
I went off to sleep...I'm not too sure exactly when...but, when I awoke the time was 4 PM.
I decided there's no way I can go outside today...number 1, it's raining; and, number 2, my legs just do NOT feel up to it.
So, although, I really want to go and join the crowd around Buckingham Palace...in order to get a glimpse of King Charles/and, Queen Camilla(a very hard act to follow Lady/Princess Diana).
Still, I wish them all the very best...and, "LONG LIVE THE KING!" I sincerely hope his life will be both happy and peaceful, as well as, successful, too.
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- 16:20 PM DECIDED TO GO AND BUY SOME 'CHICKEN AND FRIES' TO CELEBRATE THE KING'S CORONATION
I went down the street to buy some 'chicken and fries' at Tulse Hill...MM Chicken shop.
Along my way, I passed Iceland...where I went in and brought...
- 1 x Chicken Curry & rice £1.00 (microwave)
- 2 x Jamaican patties (lamb) £1.00 each = £2.00
- 15 eggs (I forgot the price, sorry)
I also went into a shop 2 stores away from MM Chicken...where I brought...
- 2 x grapefuits (65p each)
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- 16:40 PM BEFORE RETURNING HOME...WENT TO VISIT WEST NORWOOD CEMETARY
Just before returning home...and, because I was already 'outside' on the street...; -(didn't want to go home/then, have to come back out, again)-; so, I decided whilst in the process of walking past West Norwood cemetery...to pop in there to pay respects to my own family...which I did; then, left.
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- 17:40 RETURNED BACK HOME/FED THE CAT
I called the cat back in from the garden; and, then, fed her the last food of the evening.
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- 20:00 PLAYED WILLIAM HILL FREE GAMES/5 x FREE SPINS: WON £0.24p.
I decided to open up a William Hill email which allows me to have 5 FREE spins...; after which I won: £0.24p; that I added onto my Poker balance. My Poker balance, now, says £0.83p; which, in turn, means I can play 8 x £0.10p games of Poker...at any time I wish.
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- 20:14 WATCHING: FACEBOOK: POKERSTARSUK/LIVE TOURNAMENT
https://www.facebook.com/watch/live/?ref=notif&v=775039837487577¬if_id=1683394547936445¬if_t=live_video
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- 20:26 SIGNED IN TO WILLIAM HILL POKER...IN ORDER TO PLAY 10p GAMES...LOST EVERYTHING!
I had .83p balance left; and, decided to play 8 Poker games @ .10p each.
I won just one of these Poker games: .34p/and, lost all of the rest.
In the end my Poker balance said: .07p left...which is less than the .10p needed to continue playing poker games. So, then, I was 'forced' to quit playing, anymore.
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- 20:30 SIGNED IN TO DUOLINGO...IN ORDER TO PRACTICE LEARNING SOME FRENCH
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- 23:06 SIGNED INTO LADBROKES ONLINE A/C...HAD 3 FREE SPINS: WON: 30p
I signed into my Ladbrokes online a/c.; then, clicked on FREE bets...; one of the offers allowed me to spin a wheel...I won 3 spins.
When I took the 3 spins...I won £0.30p...winning £10p with each spin.
There are also further offers of FREE bets...; which I might just choose to take up, next.
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- CONCLUSION
KING'S COORONATION
A most extraordinary day...one that happens only, once, every century, I think.
But, at least, the day seems to have gone really well for King Charles and his Queen...; and, also, I think, for all the rest of the country, too...a day for huge celebration. ;-)
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GAMBLING
I guess, my gambling 'addiction' still has a hold of me.
However, so far to date, at least...I'm not playing for big money; but, only using FREE money I won to play with. (I'm just hoping and praying...that I don't let myself get carried away...; and, then, start playing for 'real' money, instead.)
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Fri 050523 AWOKE TO A BAD DREAM: COUSIN ANDREW/GA ZOOM MEETING ONLINE/FACEBOOK CHATROOMS/-ETC.
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Table of contents:-
- 08:02 AWOKE/OR, RATHER WAS AWOKEN BY A 'BAD' DREAM...!
- 12:00 NOON COOKED TUNA AND RICE
- 13:00 WAS WATCHING A GAME OF PROFESSIONAL POKER BEING PLAYED ONLINE: POKERSTARSUK
- 14:00 DID SOME FACEBOOK IM/INSTANT MESSAGE CHATTING...INSIDE OF BOTH: THE ASPERGER'S ROOM/THE GAMBLING ROOM
- 15:00 JOINED IN WITH A GA/GAMBLER'S ANONYMOUS MEETING ONLINE (WHICH WAS BEING HELD IN AMERICA)
- 22:30 THOUGHT ABOUT GOING OUT TO BUY MYSELF SOME CHICKEN & FRIES...; BUT, LEFT IT FAR TOO 'LATE'
- 23:08 PLAYED WILLIAM HILL FREE GAMES/5 FREE SPINS (EMAIL)/WON: 10P!
- 23:20 VISITED: FINDAJOB.GOV.UK WEB SITE...TO COMPLETE DOING DAILY JOB SEARCH
- 23:30 VISITED MICROSOFT REWARDS WEB SITE: REWARDS.MICROSOFT.COM...IN ORDER TO ACCUMULATE SOME MORE POINTS...SO, I CAN GET FREE VOUCHERS TO USE INSIDE OF SHOPS
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- 08:02 AWOKE/OR, RATHER WAS AWOKEN BY A 'BAD' DREAM...!
I awoke very early this morning...due to having experienced a 'bad' dream.
I had a first cousin called, Andrew...who was 2/3 years younger than me...even, as younger kids, we both tended to get on really well with one another...almost regarding ourselves as being brothers(we had no other brothers); and, who died in a motor cycle accident...he was 'speeding'...or, so, the police claimed...which was something he really 'loved' to do; and, he crashed into a car(I believe the car passenger's got hurt, too).
Well, unfortunately, just before he died we had a bit of a falling out with one another...; and, therefore, we were no longer on speaking terms, anymore.
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In my dream, I find myself practicing doing some skipping...something I've tried doing a lot more, recently; only in a very highly unfamiliar place/area...where I do not remember having ever been before...???
Next, thing I know...quite suddenly, straight from out of nowhere...a suited guy came and approached me -(if he saw me walking in the street...he would, usually, stop...when he was driving his car)- I can't recall in the dream if they, actually, said 'hello' or not...but, they did take hold of me. Quite clearly, I slowly began to recognize who that face was...it was my dearly departed cousin, Andrew. He looked rather 'younger', though...than I do remember when seeing him last.
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What's weird about that dream is...
-1, Apart from having gone and attended the actual funeral itself, I have never visited his grave. (Though, when I was in the area where I believe he is buried...I did try looking around to see if I could find it...but, no, I did not...?!)
- Number 2, a deeply perturbed mind is much more likely to get 'bad' dreams; than is a mind that is happy, peaceful, calm. My mind is very highly perturbed, at the moment.
- Financial problems (I am 'fast' running out of all money to be able to pay for bills/and, also, run the house...which is a ever constant worry on my mind...I worry about that all the time...where on earth am I going to get money from...? When my closest family: mum/aunt were still alive...; then, I had somebody to turn to for financial help and support...; but, with them both being dead...I, now, have absolutely no one to turn to for help...?!)
- Family estrangement (I don't actually speak to Andrew's sister, anymore/nor do I speak to his over-domineering, and, bad tempered uncle, Gary, neither...a person who I never trusted at all). I do have a photograph of: me/Andrew/Gary...at one of the family gathering's funeral; which, occasionally, I tend to take out to look at, again.
- I was meant to vote...; but, because they changed the voting system, recently...you have to bring ID...so, I didn't vote...fearing I didn't have the right sort of ID (no driving licence/passport)...I only got a 'birth certificate', instead; thus not having voted...did disturb me, somewhat...and, voting day was just yesterday; so, it was certainly playing on my mind.
- Another thing that might have affected my dreams...was I eat just before sleeping...; and, when you sleep on a full stomach...with 'undigested' food; then, that can lead to 'uncomfortable' sleep.
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Anyway, at the end of the day, I really don't know what that dream meant...if it's either meant to be a good/or, bad thing...; later on, during the day, though...I might try and look up the dream's meaning online.
-(I always had some serious doubts about 'fortune telling'...because, if you consult one place/person, it might say this/and, if you consult another place/person, they say that...; so, which of these is the 'right' prediction to believe in...?!)-
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Thinking about it...'nostalgia' plays a huge part in my life...; I suppose, in a way, it's how we both come to know, and, therefore, see ourselves as being, essentially...who we are related to...how we grew up/went to which schools...what food we ate/drank in the past...what country system we were born in...which, also, influences our 'feeling and thinking process'/-etc.
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- 12:00 NOON COOKED TUNA AND RICE
I made some 2 cups of brown rice(sprinkled with pickled onions/diced beetroot); which I eat with a tin of tuna chunks(salt/pepper)/together with 1 egg. It all tasted Very good, actually.
I can't believe just how quickly I finished eating the whole entire pot...; must have been really 'hungry', I guess.
Well, I didn't eat breakfast...; apart from tea/and, jam donought's.
I did also eat some fruit: 1 x diced apple/1 x banana/2 slices of grapefruit(Vitamin C).
But, that was about it.
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When I'm poor, I do NOT eat all that well...and, I have to deliberately try to keep my diet being as carefully well balanced as is possible; but, then, when I have money to spare...; man, I buy...
- 2 or 3 large sized pizza's...Vegetarian Hot/Sea Food/Donner Kebab
- Fish n Chips/with Steak & Kidney Pie/plus, large sausage in batter
- Chocolate sponge cakes/Chocolate Eclairs/Cream cakes...
- Sugar almonds/Belgian Chocolates/Haazen Daaz ice cream
- A whole red melon/mango's.
- etc.
I really do 'hate' it being poor; and, having to eat little else but...
- Baked beans and eggs/sometimes, I add in a tin of Franfurter sausages
- Loaf of brown bread(with butter/and, other spreads: Peanut butter/Nutella/Jam)
- etc
...living life poor is really kind of weird. I just have to treat it as if I were living a sort of special forces 'survivalist' sort of game...otherwise, I'm not sure if I could get through...?!
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- 13:00 WAS WATCHING A GAME OF PROFESSIONAL POKER BEING PLAYED ONLINE: POKERSTARSUK
- https://www.facebook.com/PokerStarsUK/videos/284152693939018
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- 14:00 DID SOME FACEBOOK IM/INSTANT MESSAGE CHATTING...INSIDE OF BOTH: THE ASPERGER'S ROOM/THE GAMBLING ROOM
As I usually tend to do of late...I used Facebook IM/Instant Message chat to enter 2 x different community rooms...
- ALS General Chat (Asperger's Life Support)
- Gambling addiction and recovery
...where I spoke to..and, with...a few people.
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- 15:00 JOINED IN WITH A GA/GAMBLER'S ANONYMOUS MEETING ONLINE (WHICH WAS BEING HELD IN AMERICA)
I was in a Facebook IM/Instant Message room, called:
- Gambling addiction and recovery
...when I saw an invite link, quite suddenly, appear...inviting the room visitors to attend an online chat meeting...which was being held in America; so, purely on a whim, I decided to join in.
The group based chat software used is called: Zoom. At first, I tried signing in from my Desktop computer...which has no mike/camcorder attached...; but, that communication method didn't work so well; therefore, I next decided to join in with the chat using my iPad Air 2, instead; and, everything worked fine.
I can't say I learned one hell of a lot inside there...; but, it certainly was interesting getting to see/talk to people -who speak English- on the other side of the world. Individual who wished to talk...were allowed to...including me, as well.
Finally, when the meeting was all over and done with...we all thanked everyone; and, then, left being in the Zoom software meeting.
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- 22:30 THOUGHT ABOUT GOING OUT TO BUY MYSELF SOME CHICKEN & FRIES...; BUT, LEFT IT FAR TOO 'LATE'
I was, seriously, thinking about going down to Tulse Hill...to go and buy myself some 'chicken and fries'; however, most unfortunately, even though I had gotten dressed...; with this or that distracting me...eventually, I found the time had run out...as the shop closes at 11 PM...; and, the current time, actually, said 10:55 PM; there's no way I can get down to reach Tulse Hill with less than 5 minutes left...?! Thus, I had to give up on that idea, completely...; who knows, maybe, when tomorrow comes.
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- 23:08 PLAYED WILLIAM HILL FREE GAMES/5 FREE SPINS (EMAIL)/WON: 10P!
I decided to check email...; and, in particular, searched for: WilliamHill...from the search results which came back...; I clicked on the most recent email which they sent me.
It said I was entitled to have 5 FREE spins...; so, I clicked there...
After taking the 5 FREE spins...I won just: £0.10p.
Nothing much further to say really...; other than, quite obviously, feeling somewhat disappointed; last time, I recall winning £3.00...which might buy me something -(that is, bearing in mind the minimum withdrawal is £5.00/so, you would need to keep on betting...and, winning more...before being allowed to withdraw any funds)-; but, £0.10p ain't going to buy me anything at all, I'm afraid.
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- 23:20 VISITED: FINDAJOB.GOV.UK WEB SITE...TO COMPLETE DOING DAILY JOB SEARCH
Visited...
https://findajob.gov.uk
...in order to do the usual daily job search online.
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- 23:30 VISITED MICROSOFT REWARDS WEB SITE: REWARDS.MICROSOFT.COM...IN ORDER TO ACCUMULATE SOME MORE POINTS...SO, I CAN GET FREE VOUCHERS TO USE INSIDE OF SHOPS
Visited...
- https://microsoft.rewards.com
...where I can play games/quizzes/view offers...in order to receive points...when one accumulates enough points...; then, one can use those points to obtain vouchers that can be used inside of shops.
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Thu 040523 SKIP/RAN-SIGNED ON-VISITED TATE BRITAIN
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Table of contents:-
- 05:54 AWOKE: FED THE CAT/THEN, LET HER OUT INTO THE BACKGARDEN
- 06:10 'SKIPPED/RAN' INSIDE OF THE ALLEYWAY
- 06:30 MADE FRUIT BOWL/COOKHAM SANDWICHES - BREAKFAST: BAKED BEANS & EGG
- 07:00 GOT SOME MORE SHOPPING TO DO...EGGS/-ETC.
- 07:15 HAD BREAKFAST: BAKED BEANS AND EGG - READY TO FACE THE REST OF THE DAY, NOW
- 07:30 TRYING TO THINK...WHAT TO DO WITH THE REST OF THE DAY...? STREATHAM, JOB CENTER APPOINTMENT/POSSIBLY, GO AND VISIT SEEING TATE BRITAIN
- 08:30 THAMES WATER DROPPED A NOTE THROUGH MY DOOR...STATING THEY ARE GOING TO CUT OFF THE WATER SUPPLY...FOR A SHORT TIME PERIOD OF 3 HOURS WHILE THEY ARE WORKING ON: TUE 9 TH 10 AM -1 PM
- 11:00 DAILY RITUAL: CHECKING CURRENT A/C. BALANCE...ESPECIALLY, WHEN FUNDS ARE REALLY LOW...AM I ‘OVERDRAWN’/OR, NOT...?! ANSWER: £5.00 LEFT
- 13:30 ARRIVED LATE AT STREATHAM JOB CENTER...DUE TO 'SIGN ON' AT 1:20 PM...BUT, MANAGED TO GET THROUGH, ANYWAY
- 14:00 RODE 3 X BUSES TOWARDS TATE BRITAIN GALLERY...WHERE I SPENT THE REST OF THE EVENING...FROM 2PM-6PM CLOSING TIME
- 18:15 BROUGHT FROM THE PIMLICO SHOP...NEAR THE NUMBER 2 BUS STOP...SOME REFRESHMENTS: 1 X TIN OF COKE/PACKET OF 3 X CHOCOLATE BOUNTY SWEETS
- 19:00 ARRIVED BACK HOME BY BUS TO WEST NORWOOD GARAGE...FED CAT/THEN, LET HER BACK OUT INTO THE GARDEN
- ART LINKS: TATE BRITAIN...CURENT SHOWS: ROSETTIS/ISAAC JULIEN/-ETC.
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- 05:54 AWOKE: FED THE CAT/THEN, LET HER OUT INTO THE BACKGARDEN
I woke up early for once.
Went and fed the cat; then, let her out into the back garden.
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- 06:10 SKIPPED/RAN INSIDE OF THE ALLEYWAY
I didn't skip, yesterday. But, hey, that's ok...if one is 'serious' about
taking exercise...; then, one has to realise that a part of any 'keep fit' routine...is there will be both good/bad days; and, therefore, one has to expect the bad days to occur, too; you just have to think of strategic ways of getting around these...especially, do not 'stop'...but, instead, fully make up your mind to continue working out, just as usual.
1> I walked into the alleyway...holding my skipping rope; then, I skipped for few minutes...; most unfortunately, I didn't succeed in skipping for too very long...as the rope kept on getting all tangled up around my feet.
2> Next, I decided why not add another element to my 'keep fit' routine...which is to practice doing some running, as well. So, I ran both down the alleyway, going fairly 'slow'...; then, ran back upwards going as 'fast' as possible.
I think, in future, I might just decide to do this same routine around 3 times, minimum. The problem being that I lack stamina...and, also, my legs feel rather weak...; I need to build up my leg muscles strength.../as well as, work on building my stamina more.
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- 06:30 MADE FRUIT BOWL/COOKHAM SANDWICHES - BREAKFAST: BAKED BEANS & EGG
Whenever I awake/and, also, just before I sleep...I like to start/end the day by drinking 2 pints of water...either plain hot water/or else, 'flavoured' by using chocolate tea/tea bag/orange juice syrup/-etc.
This morning I had 2 pint mug cups of 'hot' water...
- 2 x Jam doughnuts
- 1 x Cream cake
...I got to watch how much sweet stuff I'm eating, though; as, if I'm not careful, then, all of these cakes will be long gone/finished...?!
I must learn to slow down and pace myself to eat cakes less frequently...so, that they will last to the end of the week...without me needing to go out and buy more.
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I also made...
- Fruit bowl: Diced apples/diced banana/dates/2 slices of grapefruit(Vitamin C)
-(The truth is, I didn't need to make any fruit bowl, today; because I found that yesterday's fruit bowl...was still left inside of the fridge. So, I took it out of the fridge to return back to 'room temperature'; then, I can eat it.)-
- Sandwiches: 1/2 of French Stick Bread cut into 4 pieces...each piece, then, cut in half...and, filled with Butter/Cookham
- Breakfast: Baked beans & 1 egg(sprinkled with salt & pepper)
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- 07:00 GOT SOME MORE SHOPPING TO DO...EGGS/-ETC.
I notice I only have just 4 eggs left inside of a box. So, I need to go out and buy more eggs...hopefully, a box of 15 x mixed size eggs should do...; which should last me right up until the end of the week.
I love to eat eggs...; and, would normally have, at least, 2 per day; whether it's...
- fried egg (with a tin of baked beans/tin of spagetti)
- boiled eggs (I, usually, make 2/prefer my egg to be hot, nice and 'runny'...)
- egg omelette (diced onions/diced tomato's)
- etc.
...and, of course, whenever I make eggs...I usually add salt & pepper/only salt if the egg is boiled.
I also have got no tomato's left.
Plus, I need to buy either some tangerines/grapefruit.
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- 07:15 HAD BREAKFAST: BAKED BEANS AND EGG - READY TO FACE THE REST OF THE DAY, NOW
Well, I'm having breakfast, right now...; baked beans and egg.
The good thing about having had breakfast...; is it makes me feel like I'm ready to face the rest of the day...without needing to snack, constantly...; because, I feel ever so hungry.
Therefore, I find, it's usually a big mistake to miss out on having had breakfast, altogether.
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- 07:30 TRYING TO THINK...WHAT TO DO WITH THE REST OF THE DAY...? STREATHAM, JOB CENTER APPOINTMENT/POSSIBLY, GO AND VISIT SEEING TATE BRITAIN
One of the reasons why I woke up so early, today...was I knew I have an important appointment at Streatham Job Centre...; so, I wanted to get ready for it sooner rather than later.
When one suffers from ADD/Attention Deficit Disorder...; then, 9 times out of 10...I'm arrive at my appointment, 'late'. A part of the reason why...is I just wasn't ready in time.
However, after having gone and said all that...; even, if I was ready...; when on suffers from ADD; then, it's still possible to get there 'late'...as something else comes along to 'distract' you...whether it's watching TV/Internet/or, whatever...I fell asleep, again.
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I'm thinking after going to Streatham Job Center; then, I might go to visit seeing Tate Britain Gallery, as well.
Though, I may have missed early morning...I can still visit Tate during the evening, anyway.
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- 08:30 THAMES WATER DROPPED A NOTE THROUGH MY DOOR...STATING THEY ARE GOING TO CUT THE WATER SUPPLY OFF...FOR A SHORT TIME PERIOD OF 3 HOURS WHILE THEY ARE WORKING: TUE 9TH 10 AM -1 PM
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When one has really low funds inside of one’s bank a/c.; then, it becomes strictly necessary to check what the a/c. balance says, daily; otherwise, if one does end up going ‘overdrawn’...then, the bank helps themselves by pouring on extra charges for each day your a/c. does remain being in the ‘red’.
Right now, my current a/c. is in the ‘black’...meaning not overdrawn...however, it says I just have no more than £5.00 left...which is not my idea of very good news.
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- 13:30 ARRIVED LATE AT STREATHAM JOB CENTER...DUE TO 'SIGN ON' AT 1:20 PM...BUT, MANAGED TO GET THROUGH, ANYWAY
I recall lying back in bed...; whilst calmly watching TV...really into the TV show...; when, all of a sudden, I remembered...I had to 'sign on' at Streatham Job Center at a 1:20 PM. I looked at the time...and, it actually said, 1:30 PM; so, therefore, I knew I was already 'late'...?!
It usually takes me, at least, 15 minutes to reach over to Streatham...and, only if I run as fast as I possibly can; and, at age 60+ years old...I'm afraid, that's not very fast at all. Nevertheless, I had to try and do my utmost best.
I think, I arrived at Streatham Job Centre...from West Norwood...around a mile long journey...at around 1:45 PM.
Luckily, the guy who I had to sign on with, Richard...; knew I had great difficulties getting to appointments on time...and, therefore, was deeply sympathetic when he heard me breathing really 'hard'; thus, he allowed me to sign on a bit late...for which I heartily thanked him, and, left.
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- 14:00 RODE 3 X BUSES TOWARDS TATE BRITAIN GALLERY...WHERE I SPENT THE REST OF THE EVENING...FROM 2PM-6PM CLOSING TIME
From Streatham, I decided purely on a whim...to go and visit Tate Britain Gallery...just to see what's there...???
I could have gone home, first; then, retrieved my iPad/with built-in camera...but, I really couldn't be bothered...; too much extra time and effort...; so, I resolved, today, I'll just go and look...won't bother taking any pictures...pictures can wait until when another day comes.
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The first bus I climbed onto was a 159...which took me from Streatham to reach Oval...; where I hopped onto a number 3 bus, instead; this took me to the foot of Black Prince Road...where I jumped onto a number 360...taking me to Vauxhall Station...where I got off, and, walked over the bridge into Pimlico.
From Pimilco -(the other side of Vauxhall Bridge)- I simply turned left at the corner...following the river bank...until I reached Tate Britain building.
Inside there I showed them my 'Tate Members' pass...; and, I was able to get into any 'paid' exhibition they have entirely for FREE...meaning, I can visit each exhibition show, repeatedly, again and again...; and, no need to pay more...than, my Tate Membership pass did cost for the year.
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I witnessed seeing 2 'paid' exhibitions...
- Isac Julien (I saw this exhibition upstairs, first; very interesting...it's seems to be 'slavery' related...with lots of films.)
- The Rosetti's (I saw this exhibition, last...; because, it was soon closing time...; therefore, I had to 'rush' through the entire show. The Rosetti's 'draw/paint' extremely well...meaning, I will need to go and see this exhibition, again, soon; maybe, even do some 'copying' there.)
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As well as, seeing the above shows...I also visited...
- The drawing room, upstairs...where the famous Athlete Wrestling with a Python sculpture is kept...in there I borrowed some FREE A4 sized papers to practice drawing on
- I also discovered this time, downstairs...they have a kids drawing room...which is equipped with 'digital art' screens/'digital pens'. So, I went in...and, practiced doing some drawings of my own...; many of which I 'uploaded' into Tate Gallery drawings archive. I recall drawing a 'self-portrait' from memory...which I both 'dated/signed'.
- I visited the Clore Gallery section...which houses Turner's work...saw many 'new' sketchbook 'drawings/paintings' by him...extremely impressed. In the space of an A5 sheet...this guy can capture whole external buildings/as well as, building interiors...including 'light/shade'...people/and, many other object details.
I did pause for a bit to practice drawing Turner's self-portrait...; but, having not drawn for a while...I'm afraid, I got the proportions all wrong/and, the shading of the hair...I went and totally 'overdid' it...by going in far too dark...?!
- I recall visiting both book shops...upstairs/downstairs...just to look; didn't buy anything...far too broke, I'm afraid.
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- 18:15 BROUGHT FROM THE PIMLICO SHOP...NEAR THE NUMBER 2 BUS STOP...SOME REFRESHMENTS: 1 X TIN OF COKE/PACKET OF 3 X CHOCOLATE BOUNTY SWEETS
I did try getting a drink inside of Tate Gallery...; but, unfortunately, the drinks fountain was broke.
So, I was feeling fairly 'dehydrated'...and, therefore, rather 'tired/weak/listless/confused'...I knew, I needed to get a drink, and, really 'fast'.
I entered the Pimlico shop opposite the number 2 bus stop; and, asked the guy behind the counter how much is the minimum spend by card; he answered me £2.00.
I brought...
- 1 x tin of Coke
- 3 x chocolate Bounty sweets
When I came out of the shop...I made sure to drink the tin of Coke, first; then, after feeling 're-hydrated'...; I eat 1 of the chocolate Bounty sweets whilst still standing up on the street/and, the other 2 whilst sitting down on the return bus home.
-(NOTE: It is a 'big mistake' for me to travel without taking any drinks along with me for refreshment...; as I seem to get 'dehydrated' really very quickly and easily. After around 2 hours...of walking through the gallery...going here, there, everywhere...both upstairs/downstairs...all the time, I'm 'sweating' without even knowing it...; therefore, loosing essential fluids. I must have walked miles going up and down all over that gallery. Next time, I must remember to take a drink with me, first; before choosing to visit.)-
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- 19:00 ARRIVED BACK HOME BY BUS TO WEST NORWOOD GARAGE...FED CAT/THEN, LET HER BACK OUT INTO THE GARDEN
First, thing I did when I arrived home...after taking a number 2 bus from Pimlico to West Norwood bus garage...was to open up the back garden door; and, feed the cat...; normally, I would feed her at 6 PM...but, the time was, now, 7 PM, instead.
After feeding her, I let her back out into the garden, once more. I will retrieve her back in, again, later on, during this evening...maybe, at 9/or, 10 PM.
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- ART LINKS: TATE BRITAIN...CURENT SHOWS: ROSETTIS/ISAAC JULIEN/-ETC.
- https://www.tate.org.uk/visit/tate-britain
- https://www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-britain/the-rossettis
- https://www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-britain/isaac-julien
- https://www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-britain/rosie-hastings-and-hannah-quinlan