Fri 140323 Michael Thomas came and installed some roof tarpulin, internally

Thu 130423 Dream: Gambling/Dustbin men/Boiler call/Nusiance call/GP call/Remote delivery/-etc.

 Thu 130422

- 8 AM AWOKE: Had a really 'strange' dream...where I WON the Lottery...!!!

- 9:30 AM Saw the dustbin men outside emptying bins...; forgot to put out my own bin during yesterday evening; so, had to drag my own bin towards them, manually, for them to go empty it.

- 11:50 PM Got a phone call from: https://bhenergysolutionsltd.co.uk/ offering new FREE boiler installation.

- 12:05 PM Got a nuisance phone call...eFrag/Fraud (didn't respond/dropped phone down)

- 14:00-14:27 VISIT FROM MICHAEL THOMAS/HOUSING PROBLEMS WITH THE ROOF
- 4 PM GP NICOLA ARRANGING PHYSIOTHERAPY IN STREATHAM/THEY WILL SEND ME A LETTER/SHE WILL EMAIL ME SOME EXERCISES TO DO

- 4:10 PM New TV Remote control arrived through the post/ordered from off eBay. (Left feedback!)

- 5 PM GINGER WINE, NOW, ALL DONE - 7:30 PM Went down road to empty smelly food rubbish into the public tip. Also, to throw away some broken roof tiles which had fallen down.

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- 8 AM AWOKE: Had a really 'strange' dream...where I WON the Lottery...!!!

Thu 130423 (NOTE: The 'unlucky' number: 13...inside of the current date...?!)

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Boy, did I have a really strange dream...and, can't really tell when last I had one just like it.

I was sitting inside of a Casino playing all different sorts of games...; then, I recall I won at one of these...; and, next, used those winnings to invest in betting on another game, instead.

Well guess what...it won...; but, not only did it win...; it said you'd gone and 'broken the bank!'

So, I was like...wow...I've made it...every gambler's ultimate dream is to 'go break the bookies bank'...and, yes, I finally did it!

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Then, I awoke...; and, the very next thought that hit my mind was...there is, also, such a thing as people having 'dreams of contrary'...where, essentially, 'good dreams/turn bad'.

In reality, though, I am 'totally flat broke'; meaning, there is little or no money left inside of my bank a/c's.; and, what little is left is just 'fast' running out...thus, leaving me feeling, really and truly, 'scared'...!

The other big worry I'm having is...such dreams which 'tempt' you to go gambling...are really bad; and, especially, so...when a person is a 'gambling addict' like myself. In that whatever money you do have left...you will be 'tempted' to go and gamble it...; and, then, that really will leave you with having absolutely nothing.

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It's the doing 'endless dreaming'...which got me into so much trouble in the first place...only succeeding in totally 'emptying' out all of my bank a/c's

Meaning, doing all of this 'endless dreaming' has really gotta stop...by just NOT following it up in any way at all!

So, far it's been around 1 week that I been off gambling...; and, frankly, that's exactly where I'm going to stay.

F*** dreaming...because dreaming has totally ****ed me!

The only bank that the 'addictive gambler' is going to break is, in fact, their 'own'...; because, they themselves know deep down inside...and, judging from their own previous experiences, repeatedly, again and again...that even when they do win...; then, purely due to the fact that they just CANNOT 'stop' themselves from doing endless gambling...with the odds set against your winning in the long run...that just means you lose...all of your stake/winnings, and, more(money/dignity/self-worth/the trust of others...family/friends/-etc).

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I heard of something call going 'cold turkey'...where the addict experiences strong withdrawal symptoms...maybe, the less you are doing it...means, the more you 'think' about, actually, doing it.

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- 9:30 AM Saw the dustbin men outside emptying bins...; forgot to put out my own bin during yesterday evening; so, had to drag my own bin towards them, manually, for them to go empty it.

Looking outside the window...after hearing some noises...I suddenly realised it's, Thursday...when the dustbin men come to empty out all of the bins. Only I'd forgotten to put my bin outside during yesterday evening. So, I had to get up, go out there wearing slippers...and, manually, push the bin over to where the dustbin truck was...in order to get my own bin emptied.

(If the bin isn't full...; then, I don't worry about emptying it out every single week...; but, this week it was pretty full...so, therefore, needed to be emptied.)

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- 11:50 PM Got a phone call from: https://bhenergysolutionsltd.co.uk/ offering new FREE boiler installation.

Got a phone call from:

- https://bhenergysolutionsltd.co.uk/

...they said they would offer me a FREE boiler replacement; but, they would need to take down some details, first; in order to send someone to my house to do a house survey.

I really felt extremely uncomfortable with total stranger people phoning me straight 'out of the blue'; and, asking me to reveal my 'personal details'...such as: post code/house number/name/email/date of birth/-etc.

But, at the same time, I badly need to get the old boiler replaced...; so, I decided to go ahead with it all. (Fingers crossed.)

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- 12:05 PM Got a nuisance phone call...eFrag/Fraud (didn't respond/dropped phone down)
- 12:20 PM Just did 1471...repeats back the number that, most recently, called you: 020 3375 2093

Got another phone call...this time from some guy (who I don't know)...says he's from a company called: efrag..?! And, he started telling me all about...his company deals with 'fraud'...after which I simply went and dropped the phone down.

Just last week I got a phone call from this other guy...who also mentioned that his company deals with 'fraud'...; for a while I played their game...; but, in the end, I just dropped down the phone...after getting totally sick and tired of it.

Random callers...just drive me mad; especially, when you are running over to the phone whenever it rings...because you were expecting to received an important phone call.

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14:00-14:27 VISIT FROM MICHAEL THOMAS/HOUSING PROBLEMS WITH THE ROOF

Had a visit from Michael Thomas...who's business is buying/selling houses.

He came to look at the roof leak...; and, brought along some roofing tarpaulin along with him.

However, when he looked he said, that's not the right size; so, he will perhaps come back here, again, tomorrow.

He said, he cannot see any easy access to the 'outside'; and, just putting up whole house scaffolding to reach the 3rd floor would cost £1000.00's; in addition to which...in order to put up scaffolding...you would need to inform the neighbours as well.

I also showed him the other 2 leaky roofs downstairs; and, that at the very bottom of the house there is 'dry mushroom rot'.

I told him I'm trying to apply to get a grant to fix things from somewhere...; but, so far to date haven't been successful, yet.

What I found to be most deeply worrying is...when I asked him about what does he believe this house might be worth...rather reluctantly, he said, "you don't want to know!" And, that answer left me feeling rather deeply 'shocked'; as it might mean that I've already gone and left things too late.

But, on the other hand, I'm also 'aware'...that there are many other house valuations out there...so, he's just giving me one point of view...which is, of course, his own. Though, I'll admit...he works in real estate trading...; and, I don't...; so, I'm not exactly completely ignoring his opinion altogether.

I asked him does he think that the roof might collapse...; and, his reply was, yes, it's possible...as the wood is rotten straight through and through...plus, the wet rain keeps on coming in.

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4 PM GP NICOLA ARRANGING PHYSIOTHERAPY IN STREATHAM/THEY WILL SEND ME A LETTER/SHE WILL EMAIL ME SOME EXERCISES TO DO I got a 'surprise' phone call from my GP Nicola. She spoke to me about getting physiotherapy for my hurt arm...fell of my bike last year: 6th August 2022. She mentioned to me about missed appointments; for which I tried giving excuses. Anyway, ultimately, she arranged for a physiotherapy appointment in Streatham. And, also, said she would send me some exercise to do through an email. LATEST UPDATE I did get Nicola's email with a link of exercises to do...; but, I haven't tried using the link, yet. What I did do was respond back to Nicola's email...informing her that, yes, I did get it.

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- 4:10 PM New TV Remote control arrived through the post/ordered from off eBay. (Left feedback!)

I went to go and check email...; and, to see if the GP's letter had arrived, yet. Inside there I saw an email which said that eBay had delivered a 'remote control' to my door. So, I went downstairs to see if the package was there; and, sure enough, it was. NOTE(1): I still haven't tried sticking in 2 AAA size batteries to see if this remote control works, yet; but, I will...; and, then, after that's done...I will, immediately, leave eBay feedback. LATEST UPDATE NOTE(2): I did try inserting batteries into the remote control that was delivered, today; and, it worked. So, I went over to eBay to leave the appropriate feedback. Only, I think, I left the feedback for the wrong seller...you see, I went and ordered 2 of the exact same items...; so, after having left feedback for the wrong one...; I had to go and leave feedback for the right seller, instead(I knew it was the 'right' seller...because the message said item was delivered, today...which I saw too late. Whereas, the other item states item not yet delivered.). I'm just hoping and praying that the 2nd remote I'd ordered also turns up...because, I already left them with full 5 star feedback...?!

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- 5 PM GINGER WINE, NOW, ALL DONE The last bottle of ginger wine I had is now all done/finished/completely drained dry. I really enjoyed it...; what made it so extremely 'special' was I didn't have to pay for it by using 'cash'; instead, I brought it using a 'voucher' I'd won online by visiting: https://rewards.microsoft.com

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- 7:30 PM Went down road to empty smelly food rubbish into the public tip. Also, to throw away some broken roof tiles which had fallen down.

I can't stand keeping smelly food rubbish...which I dump into a plastic bag...inside of the house for too long; as, gradually, the smells tends to grow worse and worse. Thus, at some point it becomes necessary to make a trip over to the public tip...which is half way down the road; then, come back up, again. I also had to dump some broken roof tiles which had fallen down from off the top most roof.

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Tue 040423 Latest updates: Visited S on Su/Returned Tu - Skrill/Neteller- GP/BG

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VISITED S

On Sunday I went to see S...was given a car ride both there/and, back, again. Returned Tuesday morning.

Everybody seems to be doing ok.

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PHONED M...telling them about my 'latest' S visit

I didn't talk much with M...just to keep them informed about what are the 'latest' going's on. M says she wouldn't mind visiting S at home. 

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2 PM GOT A PHONE CALL FROM: GCG-data.org

Got a phone call from: 

https://gcg-data.org

...they inquired if I had done any financial investment; as they were doing fraud recovery...

At first, I sent them screenshot details of my Skrill a/c.; explaining, originally, I placed in there small amounts of around £10.00; and, was able to withdraw funds; but, as the money I put in grew larger...reaching £100's of pounds...approximately £400.00; I discovered I was losing money by investing in Crypto...so, decided to withdraw it...; but, then, Skrill put blocks on my a/c.; so, I could no longer with draw anything at all...?!

Skrill's excuse was, I need to provide sufficient ID...in the form of:

- Passport

- Driver's License

- ID Card

...none of which I have. So, for that reason all of my Skrill funds did/do remain still 'frozen'.

Anyway, at some point this company who contacted over the phone straight from out of nowhere; asked me to go and download AnyDesk software; which, apparently, allows people to 'remotely' log into your computer in order to use it; I replied to them, I didn't like the idea of installing any software on my computer at all; after which I decide to put an end to any further conversation.

I recall investing money not only into Skrill/but, also, into Neteller...which I used to fund betting at William Hill online. (But, I only saved/invested in Crypto using Skrill.) So, I also decided to go check out seeing if my Neteller a/c. was still 'active'. It appears, both Skrill/Neteller a/c's are still 'active'; but, both are also unverified a/c's; so, therefore, you cannot expect to put any large amounts of money in there which you would, later on, like to withdraw...because, you're a/c. would be, automatically, 'blocked' from being able to withdraw anything.

PHONED GP/PHYSIO APPOINTMENT

I phoned the GP in order to make a physiotherapy appointment; they said they would phone me back on...Thu 170423 3:55 PM.

PHONED BRITISH GAS/SMART METER INSTALLATION

I'd missed the Mon 3rd 9:50 Smart Meter appointment; (thus, incurring a charge of £30.00); and, had to make another appointment, instead: Sat 8th.

Sat 250322 CashPlus balance in the 'red'/overdrawn.

 2:30 PM Checked CashPlus balance...in the 'red'/overdrawn.

I use my CashPlus 'credit card' to take out loans to pay for bills which need to be paid 'urgently' like, right now. 

So, I phoned in to discover what my balance was...do I have any more money left to use on the a/c.? Answer: No. In fact, my a/c. is currently in the 'red'...meaning overdrawn by £13.99.

£513.99

LATEST UPDATE

21:45 PM Made £15.00 payment into CashPlus a/c.; should leave me with £1.01 to spend balance!

Fri 240323 eBay training shoes/Streatham Foodbank delivery

eBay

I'd brought a pair of trainers from off eBay; and, yesterday evening, the auction was won...only, by that time, 7PM (approx.) the banks were already shut. So, I sent the eBay seller a message...; I'll pay tomorrow. 

Thus, early morning I went over to Streatham to make a deposit into my bank a/c.; in order to pay for the shoes/also, some other bills.

I came back home...and, paid for the eBay package to be delivered.

LATEST UPDATE

Later on, during the same evening...I checked eBay; and, apparently, the seller has already posted the package...on the same day that I had paid.

All that's left to do is check if the shoes fit, size 8; and, that it's in sound wearable condition; before leaving eBay seller feedback.

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Streatham foodbank delivery

At around 1/2 PM, I received  a food delivery from Streatham Foodbank at my door.

It  consisted of a box of food items + bag of potatoes/fruit/froozen food. (Including some cat food.)

I am, indeed, extremely grateful for their food delivery; because, otherwise, I'm finding it very hard to find enough money to buy food...when normal food prices have just totally shot up. A packet of biscuits that used to cost £1.00...now costs...£1.75!

I used the microwave to heat up a box of frozen curry/and, rice. (And, there is still one more food box left.)

All the rest of the food items, I put away inside of the fridge. Tins of soup/sliced mangos/baked beans/-etc.

They also included toiletries: 1 x toilet roll/1 x Colgate tooth paste/some washing up liquid. 

Thu 230322 Streatham Job Centre

12:00 noon. I had an appointment to 'sign on' at Streatham Job Centre.

The lady who signed me on...didn't make any fuss...just told me to sign/and, basically, that was it.

(Who knows, maybe, they were in a hurry to get to lunch. I thought the signing on time was really odd: 12 midday. Most companies eat their lunch between: 12:00 noon - 1 PM.)

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12:20 PM Aldi Supermarket

I went inside of Aldi Supermarket...; and, having just £2.00 left in my bank a/c.; I brought...

1 x tub of Glacier's Cherries @ 99p
1 x milk (plant based) @ £1.09p

...after which I walked off home. No bag...just carried the shopping in my hand/placed the tub of Glaciers cherries inside of my left coat pocket.

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12:30 PM The journey back home...(accidentally, startled a young girl)

Returning back home...I took the short cut. I wanted desperately to take leak...; and, knew that along the path -running parallel beside Streatham tube train station- there is a 'hidden' recess. So, I took my leak; and, immediately, coming back out...I run into a young girl walking by...who, obviously, didn't see me...; so, she let out a slight scream. Instantly, I apologised, twice...saying, 'sorry'...keeping my tone low. Then, we both continued on walking...she in front of me.

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1:45 PM Streatham Foodbank phoned

I received a follow up phone call from Streatham Food bank...; they said they'll deliver me a food package tomorrow...between 11AM - 4 PM. I told them if I'm not in...they can leave it outside the door. (They also said they would phone, first; just to check I'm in to receive the package.)

Wed 220323 Streatham Foodbank application

9 AM (approx.) S/Phone call

I got a phone call from S. She spoke to me about the collapsed ceiling...stating that it made her feel worried. We also spoke about meeting up during Easter. She was in a hurry to go to work...so, I didn't bother to keep her chatting any longer than was necessary. 

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10 AM Emmaeus Charity Shop

Donated 2 pairs of training shoes to West Norwood Emmaeus Charity shop. (near to the train station). 

- One black pair of shoes...the back was too low...thus, most uncomfortably, cutting into the back of my foot heels.

- The other blue pair of shoes...I'd only recently brought from off eBay...; only instead of size 8...it appeared to be 7 & 1/2 which was far too tight.

So, basically, I decided to get rid of both.

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10:20 AM West Norwood/Center 70

I have some important things to discuss at West Norwood/Center 70...who give legal advice/and, other helpful advice. Only, when I looked at the available time slots one the time table...; every day was marked 'closed'. I think, I'm going to have to try, again...; either by phoning them...; or, visiting. They are open for, at least, 2 days per week. I think, it's morning 10 AM-12:00 noon. Tue/Fri, (I think? Will need to check, again.)

Basically, the bedroom ceiling upstairs has collapsed...and, I don't have enough money available to be able to fix it...; so, I'm wondering what other help might be available out there...if any...?

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10:30 AM St. Luke's church West Norwood

I walked into St. Luke's church...because, I knew they had a Foodbank there. When I walked in, I spoke to the church pastor: Donald. He said, they used to have a Foodbank, before; but, they closed it...because, there we drunks/scrounger's who used to hang out around the church; and, they would abuse other visitors.

He told me, there is a Foodbank on Clive Road; but, he didn't have any leaflet's left.

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10:45 AM West Norwood Library

I entered West Norwood Library; and, there picked up some leaflets...; one of which is related to Clive Road Foodbank.

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10 AM Did some shopping at West Norwood CoOp./Iceland. Brought...

- 1 x Jamaican Pattie
- 4 x Jam Rolls
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(I can't remember what else...; but, not a lot...as there was really very little money available to spend; there was less that £5.00 left in my bank a/c. to spend.)

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11:00 Returning back home...I decided to take Lancaster Hill...going towards the Jewish Orphanage. I ran into a girl -(forgot her name?)- who used to work inside of High Trees Training Centre at Tulse Hill; she is also Rocky's girlfriend/wife(?); Rocky is a kid I used to play with which I was young. She showed me her daughter; who was just about to drive off in her car. I said a quick, 'hello'. We both discussed old times...; then, I continued on my journey home. 

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11:15 Leigham Court Road, Old people's 'drop in' Centre (forgot the name?)

I walked to the Old People's meeting place on Leigham Court Road. I went upstairs to the manager's office; and, explained to the lady...that, next month, I'll be 60 years old. Is it ok to become a member. She said, we are doing membership anymore; but, you can 'drop in'. I asked do they still have 'sitting down' Tai Classes available with Michael Jacques. She said, yes; but, I forgot exactly which day/time she mentioned.

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11:25 AM Hill Side Park/Open Training Equipment

I stopped inside of Hillside Park...where they have an open equipment gym. I did some stepping/and, some press up's. Couldn't quite understand how to operate the 'rowing' machine...?

Saw a young black guy/and, a young white girl. He seemed to be instructing her what to do. I walked up to them...and, inquired if they were doing 'kick boxing'. But, the said, no, just 'keep fit'. After which I walked away.

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11:35 AM Amesbury Avenue/Care Recruitment training centre

-(On Amesbury Avenue, there used to be a pet shop...where I did, originally, buy my cat from...; so, I wanted to see if it was still there...; answer: no. The building seems to have been replaced by a Care Recruitment training center place, instead.)-

I went into a place where they were advertising care for others. So, I asked of the receptionist if they pay you to train. She replied, no. So, I left.

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11:45 AM Streatham Foodbank...St Margaret's Church/Barcombe Avenue

I went down to Streatham Foodbank...which is located opposite Hillside Park entrance...on the opposite side...Barcombe Avenue/St Margaret's church.

As I walked in a side entrance, I saw a young girl...who asked me, "do you need any help?"

I replied, "yes, I wish to join the Foodbank." 

"She replied you need to get a referral from the job centre."

 I showed her my job center benefit letter as proof that I'm unemployed.

She took my phone number; and, said they would phone me, later on.

4 PM (approx.)

LATEST UPDATE

I got a phone call from Streatham Foodbank. A female with a european foreign sounding accent...asked me why I wanted to join the Foodbank. I explained that I'm unemployed; and, signing on at Streatham Job Center...and, they were giving me £130.00 fortnightly/which works out to £65.00 weekly. Recently, British Gas had sent me a bill stating I own them £600.00+; which I couldn't pay all in one go...; therefore, a payment plan had to be arranged to pay them £50.00 fortnightly; thus, making me have even less to spend on food/drink/pay bills/-etc.

The lady listened to my case quite sympathetically; took my name/address details...and, said they would get back to me. To which, I thanked her; and, left it there. Hope to hear more, either sooner or later.

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